Well... mostly because you and I are alike. Not completely, but... I know how this can feel. Too much of this. It's miserable, it's lonely, it's absolute, and no amount of nice pats on the back or kind surface words or hopeful idealism can really change the fact that it sticks with you, you know? It's a burden you have to carry, no matter what. And not many people can really understand that. Not without things being... different. That's hard. I know it's hard. It makes being alone seem like the best option, even if it's the one you hate.
I want to help you because I... I know I could have used the help, too. Hell, I probably still could. I can only do so much for myself... but it's important I try for those I love, too.
[And, quieter:]
I don't want to see you as sad and hateful as I was when I was a kid. Hard to break that once it becomes a habit.
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branchandroot
Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-02-14 05:23 am (UTC)[Hums a bit against her hair, thinking.]
Well... mostly because you and I are alike. Not completely, but... I know how this can feel. Too much of this. It's miserable, it's lonely, it's absolute, and no amount of nice pats on the back or kind surface words or hopeful idealism can really change the fact that it sticks with you, you know? It's a burden you have to carry, no matter what. And not many people can really understand that. Not without things being... different. That's hard. I know it's hard. It makes being alone seem like the best option, even if it's the one you hate.
I want to help you because I... I know I could have used the help, too. Hell, I probably still could. I can only do so much for myself... but it's important I try for those I love, too.
[And, quieter:]
I don't want to see you as sad and hateful as I was when I was a kid. Hard to break that once it becomes a habit.