[ pretty much! once in there, he's going to relax, letting out a long sigh. this has about as great of vibes at the life elixir for him. in this state of clarity, he'll be able to focus on the hopes he has. he's going to try to tap his powers to help with this. destruction can cause creation, right? the counterbalance he's been learning in this heart has been helping him focus more on that power. that one side isn't always bad, just "misunderstood."

what he wants is to tear down that anxiety-- maybe not even with her, but within himself-- about friendship. maybe even if he cannot sort those feelings out now, at least he can try to overcome one of the stops. he reminds himself of the things he's learned, the lengths he's been willing to go for her and what she's done for him in return. balance. counterbalance. growth. joy. pain. in this short while of knowing her, he's built his own strong base in what could be considered a friendship and he's going to will those feelings into helping try to destroy that barrier between them and forge something new with her.

it's probable that she's the first person here he can consider a "friend"-- the person he knows the best now, and he hopes that she will be able to know him, too. even if he doesn't have much to offer, as he grows and learns and regains, he hopes he can share that with her. the good. the bad.

he banks on the future promise of telling her about this. the promise of swimming together-- not just together, but with other "friends."

he'll try to tear at that feeling that's trying to hold back from growing that bond, pushing through it. hoping for something more out of destroying that ]