[Loneliness. But not just loneliness. There is a sort of grim strength here. Self reliance. Have to be able to take care of herself, has to be able to handle anything, there will be no support, and if she CAN'T, then she's dead.]
[Be strong, be quick, be smart.]
[Defend yourself, do what you can to help Dirk.]
[It hurts, it's lonely, it's suffocating, you hate it you hate it you hate it and you just want to have someone else with you, to not have to be on your own.]
[But this room, in particular...]
[You're getting on in years, you're getting more capable than the Carapacians. They tried to care for you, but they weren't equipped, but that's all right. They tried, so you want to try. You want to help them not suffer so much, and maybe if you get enough pumpkins, it doesn't have to be so bad.]
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Date: 2015-01-29 02:25 pm (UTC)[Be strong, be quick, be smart.]
[Defend yourself, do what you can to help Dirk.]
[It hurts, it's lonely, it's suffocating, you hate it you hate it you hate it and you just want to have someone else with you, to not have to be on your own.]
[But this room, in particular...]
[You're getting on in years, you're getting more capable than the Carapacians. They tried to care for you, but they weren't equipped, but that's all right. They tried, so you want to try. You want to help them not suffer so much, and maybe if you get enough pumpkins, it doesn't have to be so bad.]
[But it's a hollow lie.]