i remembered when i got fefeta. i wasnt surprised i knew it was coming. fefeta was made from my kernelsrpite which means kernelsprite wasnt used for mom. i knew it was comin and then i remembered it and i didnt know bout rose then. as far as i knew it was my only shot.
this fucking clown cmoes in and throws these dead trolls into my sprite and i absolutely lose it. i cant even really remembered what i did i just saw so much red and i wanted him dead. next thing i knew the clown was just gone and jane was looking worried scared.
then
i didnt break down. i dont know how to describe what it is. just shut down completely and
[There's a lot of letters, like she's trying to start, and can't get it down for several lines.]
im never going to see her.
ill have family. ill have rose but shes not the same woman. shes not the woman who left all these things to take care of me. who never got to see me and yet she did everything she could for me.
i have family coming and that helps a lot.
but it hurts too much to know that theres someone who loves me that much woh did that much and i could never even meet her.
Entry 4? (3 is yours idk)
Date: 2014-08-07 03:38 am (UTC)this fucking clown cmoes in and throws these dead trolls into my sprite and i absolutely lose it. i cant even really remembered what i did i just saw so much red and i wanted him dead. next thing i knew the clown was just gone and jane was looking worried scared.
then
i didnt break down. i dont know how to describe what it is. just shut down completely and
[There's a lot of letters, like she's trying to start, and can't get it down for several lines.]
im never going to see her.
ill have family. ill have rose but shes not the same woman. shes not the woman who left all these things to take care of me. who never got to see me and yet she did everything she could for me.
i have family coming and that helps a lot.
but it hurts too much to know that theres someone who loves me that much woh did that much and i could never even meet her.
and
i dont
[Just kind of ends there.]