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Heart Game (Continued)

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[she is sorry she's dumb and gets the right answer by feeling things out]

How we've grown up, how we live our lives, the what and why of our history and also our personalities. Those things shape us, define both our needs and our limits.

That's right.

So the moment you reject part of your history, of yourself, you're not going to get far, are you?

[ >tactical nuke drop to sensitive personal issue, CANNOT FUCKING BELIEVE

She opens her mouth, gaping a bit. Closes it, grits her teeth. She wants to protest, to deny. It's not the same thing at all! If you knew what Lys was like, how stupid and selfish she was.....she deserves to be denied! She deserves to be forgotten! She's not me! THAT'S NOT ME!

If it was anyone else's heart, or just about anyone else's, she just might have.

Hydra covers her face for a long moment. Forces herself to breathe. But she's a Maid of Light, she knows the truth when she hears it. Truth has never promised to always be kind, or easy.

In a strained, trembling voice:]

.....no, that's right. You won't. Because rejection, it's denial. And you can't deal with something you pretend doesn't exist. You can't achieve the balance you need.

[Doom Lalonde is an asshole.]

That's correct. To find balance, to find peace, you have to accept all of yourself. And make peace with it.

[a helpful one, at least

she puts a hand over her heart again, swallows hard]

I understand. And I.....I haven't done that, up to now. I should have at least been trying to, but I wasn't. I was denying part of my past, part of me, instead.

I know this isn't about me, or my problems, but....thank you.

[A wide sweep to indicate the blood, the red strands, the cloth, everything.]

These are all the memories that Roxy wanted to be acknowledged by others, aren't they? To be seen, to not be denied. It's not about change at all. It never was. Because none of this can be changed......but they can be faced and accepted as what they are.

Edited 2015-01-26 05:53 (UTC)

[She has a knowing smile at the first part. DOOM ROXY KNOWS WHAT IT'S ABOUT.]

[Though it shifts to something forlorn, sad, but genuine.]

Lean down.

[She leans down, expression not conflicted but.....heavy, with emotion.]

[She leans forward, and it's a light, cold, kiss on her forehead.]

[You hate it.]

[It's not as if you don't understand. You know to Jane, it makes no sense, the things you tell her. She's centuries in the past, of course she wouldn't believe you when you tell her how you grew up.]

[About what you've lost.]

[Because to her, it hasn't happened.]

[But it hurts. It still hurts as she denies such basic facts of your life.]

[How she treats it like it doesn't exist.]

[And it feels like you don't exist]

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