thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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I--

[ No Rook shut up like you know anything about this when you haven't remembered anything good happening for you in that regard-- just a cycle of figuring out how to get by without dying or feeling your sister's wrath and still feeling it anyway, trying to escape and being dragged back home. Nothing else he said even seems to have registered now because of that one thing. He shakes his head. ]

I'm sorry. I ... didn't mean it like that, channeling it in that way, I just-- people like UU-- those friends are what should be your main driving force even above that. Not...

[ It's all yours Lucciola because you got the phone up and now I'm getting pinged in my bad places I'm a fuckup hooray. \o\ ]

[yeah he... will hold his phone out for Dio so he can read the conversation before he turns to Roxy]

I... do not think it is about that. Sometimes, things will not go the way you want them to. Or make you feel better over your decisions. But... it does not make you a bad person, Roxy.

[She freezes, tense.]

...how can you say that? Almost killed my friends, still pondering dooming a race?

Ignore what's good for my friends, just wanting to do what makes me feel better. Wanting to let those feelings fuel me.

How can I be a good person like that?

Because you feel as strongly as you do about those things. Whether you do them, whether you don't do them depending on if you want to or have to or not, and whether they work out as planned, whether you like what you do or hate it, the fact that you know what those things are, what's good and bad and what they mean and not lose sight of that, and still feel the ways you do about them is what makes you a good person.

... aah. As long as you know yourself what you feel about things, and realize the difference of what you believe is right or wrong. That shows that you are a good person. If you did not think or care about the consequences or results of whatever you were doing at all, whether they were good or bad... that would be different.

And how would you know? It's easy to say stuff like that, but these feelings....they don't feel like a good person's feelings.

[Her back is still to them, arms wrapping around herself.]

They never do. But you can feel like a horrible person and not be one. And you can get worn down too, and nobody feels good when they feel that way. But your hopes for the outcome, for the future you want, is what makes you a good person. Those causing the suffering in your world like the Batterwitch are doing it because they're twisted, but you ... what you do is for the opposite of that, to stop it. That's the difference, no matter what those things are.

...do you tell yourself that?

Sometimes, it is difficult to tell yourself those things... but the fact that you feel that way should be proof that you are a good person. Someone who is not would not... realize that.

[She scoffs.]

Just live in my own little world, tell myself I'm good. That can't end badly.

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fkjgd sorry I forgot to reply. do we change the order after this?

We could! Either or.