thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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Why are you here?!

I got you killed. Knew it was fifty fifty that you would die anyway if I confessed!

Same for Castling, I wasn't surprised Epona caved, and it was his team that would go with them!

That's the point ... "you'd die anyway." How that game was set up is no fault of yours at all. It was unfair, people were going to die no matter what. Do you blame Epona for confessing? Dawon for what they chose in the end? It was a game meant to make us regret what we did, no matter what we did. No matter how hard we tried.

We're here because we know that. We're here because we know that no matter what happened, you did what you did because it was you, you were being true to you, the you that didn't want to be a pawn in that game, or choose who to kill over another team, and because it's you that's our friend.

But Epona wasn't GOING to! Not without the pressure I put on them..

I knew they would probably cave if I confessed and I did it anyway...I couldn't blame them...and Dawon was new....

I was a terrible friend.

Edited 2015-01-28 06:16 (UTC)

... you don't know that for sure, Roxy. That just brings us back to what ifs all over again. But you're trying your best to forgive them for their actions, to not blame them, while taking all of it onto yourself. When you deserve the exact same thing. When you have the exact same thing from all of us.

I know it hurts to not have been able to do something more. ... I know that feeling all too well, to see people you care about have to hurt, have to suffer. To take an action that you end up regretting. None of us could do anything about that game or make it hurt less. You trying doesn't make you a terrible friend. A terrible friend ... hurts people intentionally, hurts people and doesn't care about it. You're not a terrible friend. You're an amazing friend, because you do care.