GFH: Journal 2

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

saskatchewan said, "special days are supposed to be spent with special people."

they were words beatrix wasnt sure how to react to. they kept saying that. saskatechewan and ontario. she was special she was a friend she was important and deserved to be cared about. then alberta pointed out she wasnt family.

he was right and she realized what she had been doing.

a thief she saved called her friend. one of the few she trusted and gave her a bracelet. beatrix nearly panicked but kept the facade and

i miss them.
god i miss them so much.
everytime i talk 2 these people its like another chunk of me is ripped away
i cant do this
it NEVER WORKS
i try 2 get invested
let myself b happy
ill lose it
just like every other fucking time
just hurt more along the way
cant be special
cant be family
cant be friends
the universe wont let me have it
so dun take it from others
fuck
i just want 2 drink