thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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FF: I do not... believe we are doing very well. FF: We are not saying what is needed.

So? It's still better that you tried and failed than not to try at all!

Even when trying means others are paying for it?

[She hugs him tight. There's appreciation there.]

W.....when...?

Sometimes we just need to be seen.

"To the Carapacians, I was a hero. No, a 'noble.' That's what the puzzles said. A noble, a mascot, a dreamer. They're NPCs of the Game, so that's what players are to them. I was never."

"Me."

"And when you grow up like that and your aspect is void, it becomes easier and easier to believe you're just another part of the void. Without pesterchum, I probably would have lost who I was completely."

"At least, it's the feeling I get."

TG: bitterness is a tricky one
TG: i suppose its better to say
TG: that i dont deal well
TG: with impulses that say i shouldnt do the right thing
TG: even if i say i could do something bad
TG: theres always this feeling that no
TG: no its wrong and im a terrible person
TG: but the world is terrible so u gotta be terrible
TG: be the terrible person because theres nothing else to do
TG: so bitterness is kind of self disgust too
TG: but we never go far listening to those feelings
TG: so we dont
TG: we think of our friends and happiness
TG: so it feels like those feelings are even more terrible
TG: cuz we feel em
TG: and fear when we will need to use em
TG: cuz so far it seems theyre just problems
TG: so we hate that we feel em even more

If there's a chance that it'll make things better, it's better than not trying at all.

I probably would've done the same thing.

You probs wouldn't ignore your teammate.

I don't think I made my first real friend until high school, and my thing was being lonely all the time... so...

I can't really say.

But I can say it'll definitely pass eventually.

[...oh come on there was nothing said about a teammate being there and having a dissenting opinion.

He'll just hack off another piece of vine to burn because seriously.]

If I wasn't the only one playing? Then yeah, I guess. But that's not really the point.

Look. If you hadn't done that, if you'd just shut up, and it had been dragged out, and it turned out that they were seriously that blind and everyone ended up dying except you, you'd regret not having spoken up, right?

[ doesn't fully know why there is such appreciation, but he won't reject that feeling or her ]

Three teams.

If the wolves played along, at least three teams would have lived.

You had no way of knowing that everybody would die, Roxy! Last I checked, you're not psychic.

[What's funny is that's honestly debatable with how Homestuck works.]

I should have!

I ignored my teammate, I ignored what so many people were saying, and I shouldn't have because then maybe I would have seen what was in the rules sooner!

...

[She peaks out again.]

[Moves, motions. If it doesn't?]

[She'll pull away after a few moments.]

"Thank you."

It already has. The current you never has to go starving.

I just don't know when.

So learn from it!

But don't blame yourself. Blame the Echo who ran this dumbass excuse for a game instead. 'Cause if it wasn't for that? None of this would've happened. Even if you had stayed quiet? Teams still would've died. If the Yaksinis hadn't been assholes, though, nobody would've had to.

Is that why it was so important that we kept using it here?

[ nods, accepting it. Any time. You're one of the few he'd consider friends ]

FF: You hate that you feel happiness? FF: Because that makes these feelings even worse? FF: ... so, it is not about finding another way... FF: Is it?

Not the whole board. There are yet things to come, that even she doesn't know about.

TG: i hate that i feel bitterness
TG: anger
TG: all those feelings
TG: well also sometimes happiness
TG: but thats more depression at this point
TG: basically im afraid of bing a bad person?
TG: that sort of thing
TG: but yeah
TG: sometimes its not about the solution
TG: like doom said
TG: just about whatever makes those feelings break free of the circle

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