Heart Game (Continued)
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thevoidsdarkhorse
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[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]
[Isn't that wonderful though?]
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Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-10 07:30 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-10 07:36 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-10 07:40 am (UTC)[ reaches out to take her hand that had been clutching the glass before ]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-10 02:20 pm (UTC)anyway just give him a moment to get his bearings - he has enough sense to cancel the laser before it hurts anything here at least
...and then this Roxy's words actually register and]
...What did you just say?
[goddammit Roxy, Zelos' death wish was bad enough, not you too!]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-10 08:04 pm (UTC)It's democracy.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 01:57 am (UTC)Kill me. Please?
[Just keeps smiling and sorry bro, sometimes your teammates want to die.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 01:58 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 01:59 am (UTC)I run away. I drink. I do everything I can to not face it.
Could have lived like that, but Zelos....Zelos wouldn't allow it.
RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:23 am (UTC)Goddammit, Roxy, there is no way in hell I'm killing you! And I should really punch you in the face right now!
[but he won't because he doesn't hit girls]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:25 am (UTC)Why not?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:40 am (UTC)Two? You're my friend.
[...ha
ha
and this is where I love the irony that comes with backthreading]
Three? How exactly would the world be better off without you? Because it seems to me like it's better off with you in it.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:48 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:54 am (UTC)It would be better for me.
The world keeps burning down around me. What's the point of being the only survivor in a wasteland?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 02:56 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:05 am (UTC)Isn't John still around?
Aren't the Carapacians still around? [granted he's pretty sure this is about That Memory and he's not sure what's up with all of that but. They're standing here at the lab, they count.]
Aren't us Rats still around?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:21 am (UTC)Then here's something I think you need.
[FOREHEAD SMOOCH.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:23 am (UTC)Doomed timelines. In my world time is prewritten. You can't change the timeline or you'll create an offshoot. And everyone in that offshoot is slated to die.
John's powers are supposed to let him do it. Change time without creating a doomed timeline. But if he could do it....then the memory wouldn't exist.
So we're doomed. Whatever happens, everyone in that timeline is either going to die because it's been Doomed, or because the Condesce and Lord English will finish us off.
Rats leave.
Always leaving, over and over.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:25 am (UTC)How dare you!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:38 am (UTC)Heh... okay then. Hate me all you like.
If your life's defined by loss and pain and you want it to end because everyone takes things from you, then that's your right as a person. But since I'm your friend, and your spadesthing besides, I'm going to look out for you because I like you--and it's my job to make you want to throttle me in a way you like.
So I'm going to keep you from wanting to die. I'll find a way to take that need from you, even if it makes you want to beat me up a little or a lot.
Because we're friends.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 03:45 am (UTC)They all leave!
You'll leave too!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 04:04 am (UTC)I'll come back, and wander off again, as I do. Life's like that. Partings, rejoinings, all of that... But I'll make sure that the partings are more of a 'see you later' than a 'goodbye.' After all, there's two kinds of people in this part of your heart that I've seen: The kind that take things from you and you wish would die but won't, and the kind you wish wouldn't die but do.
And then there's me, walking the balance between the two like a Monk of Mind should. So you can't just decide for me if I'm going to leave you or not. My future's not getting prewritten by anyone.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 04:08 am (UTC)You're still living with it. It's not easy to face things. I'm not facing the reality of this place. Minor compared to what you've been through.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 04:20 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 04:21 am (UTC)You can't promise you'll live, that you'll always come back, you've already died once!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-03-11 04:26 am (UTC)But you also can't promise that I'll die. Because it's always one of the two with you--and I'm both at once. So believe in the unknown--the stuff beyond what exists. That's 'void' anyways, right?