Heart Game (Continued)
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Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:01 am (UTC)Re: BLOOD
Date: 2015-01-28 04:04 am (UTC)those hinges? are getting set on fire.
...and if that's not enough to break them outright (and he's only got a candle's worth at a time so probably not) it'll at least weaken them enough that he can take them out with his sword.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:05 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:05 am (UTC)Yeah. We are.
Re: tipsyGnostalgic
Date: 2015-01-28 04:06 am (UTC)TG: going through it just kinda acts like triggers
TG: for the fun flashbacks
TG: whoooo
TG: rage is basically all the feels that doom just goes welp at
TG: plus other shit
TG: so yeah
Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:09 am (UTC)I need...reassurance.
[She reaches down, picking up the broken orange block.]
I used my friends from home as a base. Because I was used to it. Waiting, being patient, and I was confident in how they felt for me. There was no doubts, no neurosis. I knew that as long as I got back to 'em, their feelings wouldn't have changed.
Here, I'm always questioning, unsure. I dun understand people well, so it takes a while to be confident, but it seems when I'm really opening up, they go away. So I thought home was safe.
But then it wasn't.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:10 am (UTC)[And she is not ready for that. She drops the bottle, hands on her head.]
Wbat te fuck?!
Re: tipsyGnostalgic
Date: 2015-01-28 04:12 am (UTC)VS: And what stops the triggers
VS: So that we get back to Rage
VS: At the end
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:12 am (UTC)Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:13 am (UTC)Then use me as a base.
We might not have been the closest of pals before this whole adventure started, but. . . [and he shrugs] I dunno. This might seem weird, but after rudely tromping through a number of your issues, I feel a li'l bit closer to you than I was before.
[sheepish smile]
So. . . let's be friends after this. Better friends than we were before.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:15 am (UTC)We're in this together. I know I didn't experience any of that like you did. But you're not alone now.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:16 am (UTC)He'll hold that for a long while before leaning his weight back, a hand steadily on her shoulder.]
Be patient with yourself, too, alright?
It's never an easy thing to accept, seeing someone make choices that you wish you could change. You're working hard with plenty of people. But...
[Drifting off for a moment, before pulling out the martini glass and handing it to her.]
...Sometimes, it's better to let those around you realize things for themselves. Be there for them, and never give up on them. But let them find their own strength.
Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:19 am (UTC)[There are feelings there. Understanding. Power in water, danger, but peace and safety. Whispers of water metaphors because that has now become a thing.]
[A new bond, a surprising friendship.]
[There it is, that chunk of void, waiting to make something, just needing to be snatched away.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:21 am (UTC)[She stares at the martini glass, and slowly taking it.]
...is that what you think this was?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:22 am (UTC)And ... "can't" is a strong word to use, too. Everybody makes mistakes, and ... maybe in the future we'll make more. All of us. That's what part of being alive is. But don't put impossible expectations on yourself like that, or else it's just going to be something else that sits on you, keeps you feeling like you're suffocating. Do your best, remember your mistakes and make choices in the future with everything you've gone through and learned in mind. They'll work ... sometimes they might not, but it's not something to hate and blame yourself for. We all love you, we'll all support you, and we'll never ... never blame you, or not forgive you, for doing something that you felt was right, something that you thought would help.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:23 am (UTC)Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:23 am (UTC)[he snatches it, and he attempts to shape it into that that new bond-- into water]
Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:23 am (UTC)Re: BLOOD
Date: 2015-01-28 04:24 am (UTC)[You have sworded out hinges.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:26 am (UTC)That's dumb! This is stupid! Sitting around crying and drinking forever won't fix anything for anyone! It didn't fix anything in your life. It never will! Mourning is fine, but this is just trying to run away!
No rival of mine can be that much of a wimp!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:28 am (UTC)[ but he's not letting go, just holding on ]
Roxy. Those bonds shouldn't be dismissed.
[ it feels strange for him to say it, but he knows that's true ]
Even if they might not be something you want, they're there. It isn't just your experiences that have shaped you... It's also the people you've met. That's something I'm learning from being here. From the people who know me from home. It's frustrating and it can be an annoying feeling, but... It's still important.
Re: tipsyGnostalgic
Date: 2015-01-28 04:28 am (UTC)TG: luck mostly
TG: like i said
TG: ptsd
TG: i mean
TG: in the thick of rage
TG: all there
TG: doom or heart might know how
TG: emotions r hearts thing
TG: n doom understands the bad shit best
TG: so might know the way to circumvent in rage
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:29 am (UTC)But regardless of my involvement, intentional or otherwise, you still chose to change on your own. Not because anyone told you to do it, or pushed you until you gave in. That's important. It means something to you that way.
So... it's only fair to think the same of others, too. Even if it's hard to have to watch and wait.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:29 am (UTC)Re: HOPE
Date: 2015-01-28 04:29 am (UTC)