thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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[ at least he doesn't pull away or anything ]

...I don't know. Knight Light Roxy mentioned other people just going through the room without stopping, too. The only time people seemed to focus on the room was after Trickster was released.

[Nods.] It's true.

After all, it's so easy to think nothing is dire s'long as you got a smile plastered on it. Most won't look below the surface.

Kinda like water, almost. Could look perfectly calm on top, but once you're in, you discover there's an under current ready to pull you under.

[ that... is probably one of the best things she could tell him. really connecting it for him to something he understands ]

Maybe that's why I was drawn back by the water. Trying to make that connection. I thought what I did was wrong, but if it's helping fix that hurt...

[ nods at that thermos ]

That was from her.

[She nods.] I know. Life is my counter balance.

She's all 'bout change, I'm not to change at all.

But how to handle us, it starts from the same first step.

Mm. I see.

Is that first step trying to understand? Or is it something else?

[Nods.] That's right.

I'll try harder to do that.

[Nods.] Good.

Now.

You have some ideas about the room, right?

What do you 'understand' about it so far?

With what you just mentioned about Life... This room being a counter balance, it... You're a grounding force. Fixed and stable to even out the free and sporadic side of Life. It's...

[ sighs, he's going to have to go for water metaphors, since it's easier to explain for him ]

It's like with swimming earlier, you have to compensate and have everything working together. Each part of your body working with the water. If something is too far off, one way or another, that unevenness causes a drag and the water will pull you down and consume you. There needs to be a harmony between yourself and the water.

[ which... is to say, a harmony between the positive and negative emotions, working together ]

[Nod, nod.]

This is very true.

And for that, you have to acknowledge every part of your body, don't you? It's no good if you just let your leg dangle, is it?

Of course. It takes every part to function.

[Nods.]

Being close to people, connecting with people, it's like swimming. Gotta have the ability to acknowledge all those parts.

You understand, why I'm not 'bout change?

You're a fixed point. This pain is something that shouldn't be erased since it's part of what forms you. And any change... would erase that.

[Nods.]

That's right.

As much as I would like to change it....it's still part of who I am.

It still makes up who 'Roxy' is.

[ lightly squeezes her hands ]

But you also don't need to carry the burden alone. Even if we can't fully understand, it's obvious there are a lot of people that care about you. That they're willing to go through anything to prove that. You don't need to change, but... there will be people to help with those weights trying to pull you down.

[She smiles, looks amused, but also sad.]

I know.

That's why I'm makin' y'all go through here.

'cause I'm kinda stupid as a whole, but I'm willing to do what I need. Plus, y'know, it'll help with what comes next.

[ he can't say anything about the "as a whole" part, since he hasn't seen her much as a whole ]

What comes next?

I send ya off to Rage.

[Letting go of his hand to give him back his thermos.] Btw, you do have a sylladex.

[ takes the thermos from her ]

...What's that?

Magical storage system.

Now that you know it exists, the way to use it should pop up here. [Pokes his forehead.]

[ blinks at that poke, but sure enough ]

Oh.

[ and he'll dump that thermos into safe keeping, then ]

. . . Thank you.

[ gasp, shock, hold the surprise ]

[She smiles and there's something sad, forlorn about it, but it's genuine.]

You're welcome.

Ready to go? It's gonna probs be an ordeal in Rage to, so you'll want to be prepared.

I am.

[ not so overwhelmed from when he first touched the blood and has that energy back ]

As prepared as I can be, at least.

[She nods and leans forward to kiss his forehead with cold lips.]

[You hate it.]

[It's not as if you don't understand. You know to Jane, it makes no sense, the things you tell her. She's centuries in the past, of course she wouldn't believe you when you tell her how you grew up.]

[About what you've lost.]

[Because to her, it hasn't happened.]

[But it hurts. It still hurts as she denies such basic facts of your life.]

[How she treats it like it doesn't exist.]

[And it feels like you don't exist]

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