Heart Game (Continued)
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thevoidsdarkhorse
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[Nothing]
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[Isn't that wonderful though?]
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Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 10:49 am (UTC)Maybe that's why I was drawn back by the water. Trying to make that connection. I thought what I did was wrong, but if it's helping fix that hurt...
[ nods at that thermos ]
That was from her.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 10:58 am (UTC)She's all 'bout change, I'm not to change at all.
But how to handle us, it starts from the same first step.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:02 am (UTC)Is that first step trying to understand? Or is it something else?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:03 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:04 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:06 am (UTC)Now.
You have some ideas about the room, right?
What do you 'understand' about it so far?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:16 am (UTC)[ sighs, he's going to have to go for water metaphors, since it's easier to explain for him ]
It's like with swimming earlier, you have to compensate and have everything working together. Each part of your body working with the water. If something is too far off, one way or another, that unevenness causes a drag and the water will pull you down and consume you. There needs to be a harmony between yourself and the water.
[ which... is to say, a harmony between the positive and negative emotions, working together ]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:17 am (UTC)This is very true.
And for that, you have to acknowledge every part of your body, don't you? It's no good if you just let your leg dangle, is it?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:22 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:25 am (UTC)Being close to people, connecting with people, it's like swimming. Gotta have the ability to acknowledge all those parts.
You understand, why I'm not 'bout change?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:33 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:35 am (UTC)That's right.
As much as I would like to change it....it's still part of who I am.
It still makes up who 'Roxy' is.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:42 am (UTC)But you also don't need to carry the burden alone. Even if we can't fully understand, it's obvious there are a lot of people that care about you. That they're willing to go through anything to prove that. You don't need to change, but... there will be people to help with those weights trying to pull you down.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:47 am (UTC)I know.
That's why I'm makin' y'all go through here.
'cause I'm kinda stupid as a whole, but I'm willing to do what I need. Plus, y'know, it'll help with what comes next.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:49 am (UTC)What comes next?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:50 am (UTC)[Letting go of his hand to give him back his thermos.] Btw, you do have a sylladex.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:52 am (UTC)...What's that?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:53 am (UTC)Now that you know it exists, the way to use it should pop up here. [Pokes his forehead.]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:58 am (UTC)Oh.
[ and he'll dump that thermos into safe keeping, then ]
. . . Thank you.
[ gasp, shock, hold the surprise ]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:02 pm (UTC)You're welcome.
Ready to go? It's gonna probs be an ordeal in Rage to, so you'll want to be prepared.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:07 pm (UTC)[ not so overwhelmed from when he first touched the blood and has that energy back ]
As prepared as I can be, at least.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:10 pm (UTC)[You hate it.]
[It's not as if you don't understand. You know to Jane, it makes no sense, the things you tell her. She's centuries in the past, of course she wouldn't believe you when you tell her how you grew up.]
[About what you've lost.]
[Because to her, it hasn't happened.]
[But it hurts. It still hurts as she denies such basic facts of your life.]
[How she treats it like it doesn't exist.]
[And it feels like you don't exist]