thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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[When I do views, I go all out.]

its true n u kno it.

It's been a pretty crazy ride, I'll admit to that.

[he shrugs, titling his head back to admire the sky]

But I'm used to crazy rides by now.

if u say so.

sit with me?

[nods and takes a seat next to her]

I'm almost surprised you aren't the true heart, considering what the heart aspect stands for.

But I s'pose you're only one step away, yeah?

i probs would have been if she wasnt what she was.

but hey.

ur aspect is ur core.

so yeah im close but no cigar. just the one who can send u there.

[glances down at his own shirt with a wry smile]

Hope said you'd be able to do that. You must have free rein of the whole soul, huh?

[Nods, and shrugs.] basically! can access everything anyway.

tho before that.

how r u holdin up?

I'm fine.

[it's an automatic reply, like muscle memory]

I've learned how to. . . deal with stuff, y'know?

[She raises an eyebrow at that.] and i totes believe its an absolutely a healthy way u deal.

Hey, seriously! I'm adaptable.

[super healthy Kaito]

[This is the most judgey, disbelieving look.]

. . .

Why doesn't anyone ever believe me when I say that?

probs the same reason ppl dun believe me when i bullshit them.

also cuz there are A LOT of bullshitters in kyriakos n its so much easier for like to spot like.

[HEAVY SIGH. he leans back on both hands]

So it takes a liar to spot a liar? S'that what you're saying?

i think so

also rogue of void.

Now you're just judging by appearances.

[lightly amused]

what u get 4 stealin my look.

Couldn't help it! I am who am. 'Sides it is a pretty cool look.

it is. n true u can't.

n u dun seem like someone whose resistant to his classpect. stands to reasons ur embracing it then. whiiiiich means.

well intentioned liar is basically a thing thats gonna be happening.

Magician.

[he grins]

Lying is what we do for a living. I guess s'why this whole new power set came so easily to me.

I learned the concepts when I was just a kid.

uh huh.

n im both supposed 2 believe ur fine when ppl who DO deal with epic lvl bullshit arent fine n believe u were a norm magician?

[ppppppause. he's not looking at her, instead focusing his gaze on the view ahead]

I'll save my story for another time.

[he finally says with an easy smile and a small shrug]

When I'm sure Roxy will actually remember it.

fair nuff.

....

u can figure out why the horrific stuff exists. those r bad experiences.

but do u kno why despite knight light asking for help despite how much of me admitted we needed help...

why my heart kept hiding and make yall jump thru hoops to do it?

Because sometimes it's hard to trust people.

[that answer comes easily to him]

Trust them enough to show them the parts of you that you struggle to accept, or to be able to help you with them in the first place.

[gestures vaguely at the symbol on his shirt]

There's this thought-- this feeling-- that you've gotta do it all on your own. That to protect the people you care about you can't let them in, can't let then help.

exactly that last 1, and then the rest though less of a chunk.

cuz in the end a rogue of void is a role of anonymity and nothingness. u dun do it for recognition or praise or anything like that. u do it cuz u feel u have to and when that happens nuff times u become convinced thats all u have to do.

youre meant to do things for others. theyre not meant to do things for you. u cant be a burden to them. u step back n surrender n dun fight for things u want when someone else can enjoy them in ur stead.

but in the end youre human. you cant live like that.

thats why pesterchum worked. cuz it was a lifeline. i probably wouldnt be here anymore if i hadnt had that dumb computer program growing up.

but i can have more than just barely scraping by. i can have more than just whats necessary to function and i need to be able to accept that.

n you. [She poked his shoulder.] should get that in ur head b4 u need a group taking a field trip in ur soul to break down harmful neurosis.

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