thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

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From:

pawper

AU?

[....wipes at face, and then with tired honesty:]

Uh-huh.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

alternate universe. whole big thing very confusing.

[Will put a hand on her shoulder and guide her over to sit down.]

From:

pawper

[what does she even say to that kind of concept

obediently follows and sits wherever she's guided, leaning against roxy]

...okay.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She wraps an arm around her shoulders.]

been a rough day huh?

From:

pawper

[.....turns and wraps both arms around roxy and CLINGS]

Y-Yes.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Hugging back.]

sorry. but i did need the help.

From:

pawper

[sniffles]

You don't have to be sorry.....it's still w-worth it.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

...all right.

its okay to cry. its safe here.

From:

pawper

Nnn.....I trust y-you.

[proceeds to wail quietly for a few minutes, clinging and sniffling, before going silent and relaxed]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She will just hold her and rubs her back the whole time. All the support and willing to wait for her.]

From:

pawper

[BUT SHE CAME HERE TO SUPPORT AND HELP YOU!!! goddammit

not resisting though]

....thanks. Sorry, I didn't.....I know this isn't about me.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[It's cool, this is Heart's deal.]

of course its bout u.

friends r my most imp thing. part of me bein okay is making sure all of u could be ok.

From:

pawper

[pausing to consider that since, after all, she's not so different in that respect]

Then....I'll be okay. I promise. It just all finally caught up with me once I got here.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

u dont need to promise. if ur not okay then ur not okay and ill do what i can to help. thats why its 'could be.' want to make sure u got the means 2 b ok even if u arent at the moment.

it is a lot tho.

From:

pawper

I'm not....saying it because I think I need to. I'm saying it because it's true.

[she's not a liar, she doesn't say things out of pity or a sense of obligation]

I'm better than I used to be.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

im glad 2 hear that. just wanted to be sure.

ur important 2 me. i wouldnt want a promise to me to ever hurt u.

From:

pawper

[keeps either hugging or leaning against, weh physical comfort]

....I know. I wouldn't want that, either. So....I don't want to make promises that could hurt either of us, even if they sound nice.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[All the physical comfort. She smiles and nods.]

thats a good idea. ill try to...subconsciously member that i guess.

From:

pawper

If you can! I want to tell Roxy everything when she's awake, too, so she'll hear that again anyway.

I don't want to hide anything from her. I used to think.....that people knew or remembered, somehow, what happened in their hearts. But I know better now.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

thatll help. not sure how much specifics get retained.

oh yeah no they dun remember shit. zelos didnt. p sure technic didnt either or hed have believed why i quit drinking.

From:

pawper

[she just says, simply, in innocent defense of her past self:]

I mistook silence for a lack of need to talk about what had happened. That was my mistake.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She nods.]

honest mistake to make. esp when its technic.

ill probably know shit happened, nuff is dramatic 2 notice plus i kind of try to monitor impulses so i dun do shit thats totes bad in a social setting. but thatll be touch and go.

From:

pawper

[god forbid she trusts and expects her baes to be reasonably honest with her when she's twice as honest in return]

Are you going to need time to yourself? I'm worried, but I know how people can need their space sometimes.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

yes.

wit ppl i would try to wrap it up as soon as i can without rly dealin wit it. if i start off with space ill try to actually unpack it all and sort if b4 tryin to just bury it.

its honestly still new havin ppl round when im a glass case of emotion.