Heart Game (Continued)
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Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:06 pm (UTC)Rogue of Void, vague as fuck, right?
Because, yes, yes, everytime people have relied on ROXY to fix the problems, things have totally worked out! [Oh, that's mania there.] Not like she didn't get a whole game TPK'd.
Not like didn't break the psyche of several people trying to HELP.
Not like she failed at feeding a bunch of aliens who needed help desperately or leave 'em all to die a horrible fiery death before being de-existed.
It's not like she was RIGHT THERE as everyone she loved was slaughtered and couldn't do a damn thing because she let herself get SLEEP SPELLED of all things.
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:29 pm (UTC)Roxy!
Mistakes aren't reasons to give up! Do you think. . . any of your friends, if they were in your position, would ever give up on you?
[not squeezing her hands because they sure are cut up right now]
You'd believe in them, wouldn't you? And they'd believe in you.
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:32 pm (UTC)I did! I did believe in them and look where we ended up!
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:43 pm (UTC)[he's getting blood all over his hands but man whatever, he's died like three times now a bit of blood won't hurt everything]
You're alive. You're still clinging onto a small shred of hope that Ed gave you. It's not much, but it's not nothing, either. It's only the end when you give up, Roxy, and you haven't yet-- you haven't.
And the people who are in your soul right now, fighting to make their way here to help you, haven't given up on you, either.
You're not alone.
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:47 pm (UTC)That HAS.
Only a matter of time 'fore John's gone.
Only matter of time 'fore all of you are gone.
[She falls to her knees.]
It's just a fucking game waiting until it all ends and let's me have any peace.
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Date: 2015-01-26 02:57 pm (UTC)Don't do it for the universe. Screw the universe.
Do it for your friends. And-- trust us. The only reason we have made it this far is because we trusted you, when you asked us to die for you to gain immortality.
Trust us as much as we trust you. Trust us to support you and pick you up when you trip and fall. Trust us to help you in every capacity that we can, because I bet no one is going anywhere after this is through.
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:05 pm (UTC)Y'all just die to. It's what happens. Everytime. What's the saying, once is coincidence, twice is a pattern. Five times kind of overkills it.
Doesn't matter how much I trust, how much I care, or work for. Doesn't matter how much I try to build up bonds.
Everyone goes away, one way or another.
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:08 pm (UTC)[pulls back, hands on her shoulders]
You wouldn't forget, would you?
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:10 pm (UTC)[Is a very deep ping]
I would never forget them! I wouldn-I would NEVER deny their existence!
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:18 pm (UTC)I know you wouldn't. Your friends are your strength, right? And that strength shatters when you think they've been taken from you.
But they haven't been. You've sill got them right here.
[places a hand over his heart]
And as long as you don't forget, then they'll continue to give you strength. As long as you don't forget. . . nothing can ever take them from you, no matter how hard it tries.
[he's never really been one for friendship speeches, and that sound cheesy even to his own ears. but he believes it]
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:23 pm (UTC)That's all it was for over fifteen YEARS. It was all I had, that hope that....that I would GET them, have them. That I could be happy. That I would have people who wanted me, who loved me, cared for me, actually SAW me, and valued me.
I had it. I had it, I had them, but then they were taken away after what? A few months?
[She sobs.] Even my mom...I had her in my arms. I thought....I thought I saved her, I thought I had her in time, but it was just a few more minutes.
Over fifteen years for a few months, a few minutes....
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:37 pm (UTC)[he drops one hand to his side, and assesses her injuries. before responding, he concentrates again-- taps into the void, and tries to conjure up a roll of bandages for her. it's also not quite as easy as conjuring roses and cards, but hey. . . be managed a uniform earlier. certainly he could manage bandages]
No one can blame you for hurting. For being angry. You have every right to yell and scream and cry about it.
No one will take that from you.
But you said you would never deny their existence. . . so as much as you cry, as much as you hurt. . . don't deny their existence by giving up.
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:50 pm (UTC)I wouldn't be! It's...it's memories that do...
Someone who misses 'em...
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Date: 2015-01-26 03:55 pm (UTC)Misses them. . .?
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Date: 2015-01-26 04:06 pm (UTC)You know they existed because people remember 'em. Know who they were. They....they didn't just disappear anonymous.
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Date: 2015-01-26 04:10 pm (UTC)[continuing to wrap the injuries up her arm next]
But if you gave up, who would be left to miss them?
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Date: 2015-01-26 04:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-26 04:26 pm (UTC)Roxy. . .
[quiet, but firm. speeching isn't really getting him anywhere, probably because his aspect isn't hope or heart anymore, but maybe. . .]
[maybe if he tries something else. . . more in line with his role. . .]
[taps into void senses again, focusing on the return to void feelings, the void taint that doom had spoken of earlier. he focuses as he bandages, tries to grasp it, and tries his best to steal it]
[if words won't help, then maybe taking on some of her burden himself will]
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Date: 2015-01-26 05:07 pm (UTC)[But it's probably a bit of a trip because now HE is feeling those impulses to want to go to the void.]
[Her head snaps up.] What are you-?!
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Date: 2015-01-26 05:29 pm (UTC)You won't listen to what I'm saying.
[steal steal steal it all, he can handle it, he can push through this, that's what he's always done, he hasn't broken like she has--]
So I'll show you, instead.
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Date: 2015-01-26 05:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-26 05:39 pm (UTC)[hands shhhhaking now boy this is miserable]
That's the point! You're not doing this alone, and-- you never were!
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Date: 2015-01-26 05:51 pm (UTC)S....stop! Please, I don't...
[She grabs his arms, tight.]
Just...just stop, please, I don't want to lose anyone else!
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Date: 2015-01-26 06:02 pm (UTC)[he stops, but he doesn't give back what he's taken so far. still struggling against those feelings, but his willpower has always been strong]
I'm not going anywhere. I'm not-- [deep breaths deep breaths]
I'm not. . . going to break under this.
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Date: 2015-01-27 05:47 am (UTC)You-
L-loved ones! It's....love, connections, those feelings, it...it makes the void's call less, omg, dun just willpower that shit, the void will make you want to go, need good feels to fill the emptiness and make it...less.
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