Heart Game (Continued)
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[Isn't that wonderful though?]
IRC: #Voidheart. Plurk pings: Alwaysterrible.
Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:06 am (UTC)Sa...fe?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:07 am (UTC)That's right.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:17 am (UTC)[Good.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:18 am (UTC)I love you, Roxy.
[it's meant platonically in this case since, you know, 5 year old]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:27 am (UTC)[Looking up startled at those words.]
[She's only heard those from her mom on screen, okay.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:30 am (UTC)I love you. I want to tell you that as many times as you want to hear it.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:33 am (UTC)[Little bitty doesn't know how to take this.]
[MAYBE SHE WILL JUST CLING AND CRY ON YOU.]
[How about that.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:42 am (UTC)just gonna gently cling back and do more hairtouching
let out those tears!!!]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:46 am (UTC)[But the mood whiplash comes and you're back in the Neighborhood, in front of a tall building.]
TG: thats the lab
TG: need to get on the roof
TG: theres a ladder down
TG: n also
TG: be a good friend
[And then it disconnected.]
[Which might be a bit vague except you can now also see a figure standing in between you and the building.]
[It’s Roxy. Standing there in a t-shirt, skirt, and leggings, her mother’s scarf wrapped around her. In her hand is a piece of glass covered in blood, her own clothes stained the same. Around her are bodies. The bodies of her friends and Rose.]
[She looks over her shoulder at you, and she’s smiling, but her eyes are empty. She turns to you, and perhaps you’ll realize the blood is HERS. She’s covered in jagged injuries, but nowhere vital. Those spots are covered in bands of tiamt-with-black, a vibrant red, and blue. She holds out the shard of glass.]
Kill me.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:48 am (UTC)OW PROBABLY LOST MY WEAPONS FOR GOOD
OW NOW THIS FRESH HELL]
.....
Why?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 08:59 am (UTC)'Cause I wanna die.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 09:06 am (UTC)[.....
She's seen those eyes before, reflected back at her in the gazes of fellow Silver Fangs during certain memories. Lys had wanted to die in the most permanent sense of the word. But she couldn't, because her werewolf body wouldn't allow her to. She'd just come back no matter what, trapped in a life she didn't want and believed she could never deserve.
Hydra had thought of her as stupid, selfish, blind to everything except her own pain. Yet here Roxy was, mirroring it.]
Why?
[A slow, careful approach.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 09:42 am (UTC)Because I'm the only one left.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 09:44 am (UTC)Because you're always the only one left. Right?
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 09:47 am (UTC)Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 09:55 am (UTC)[Quick as she can, she reaches out to take Roxy's face in both hands. Failing that, she'll grab for her shoulders.]
Friends don't let friends stay blind. I learned that from you!
[As the Light, she'll banish that clouded perception, burn away the fog of despair, and give back some much-needed clarity. Some incredibly important clarity, a clarity that refuses to be ignored. She puts all she has into the effort.]
That blood....those bonds....they're not meant to be chains, weights made of failure and loneliness, but your strength. That's what your friends and mother from home were to you, why their loss hurts so badly......and it's why me and everyone else is here!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 10:04 am (UTC)[The light has an affect, the empty smile shifting to just a look of pure pain and despair.]
They can't be a strength when they're gone!
[And it, unfortunately, has another affect.]
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 10:12 am (UTC)Hydra draws strength from that thought even as the memory rocks through her system and blur her vision with tears.]
....then you make those longshots work. Rewrite the rules, make the odds change to be in your favor! And don't....don't you dare tell me those important people can't still support you! Don't you fucking dare!
I left my home for a reason I can't remember. Maybe my family's dead, too. But they're still my strength, Roxy, because I remember them! I remember how much they cared about me, that they loved me! I remember that connection!
If you die like you're saying you want to, if you give up, you're denying all of us! The memories of your friends and mother, and the friends that are here now, fighting to help you. You're pretending none of what you shared with them, or us, ever existed!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 10:27 am (UTC)I...I would never-of course they existed!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 10:39 am (UTC)but now we hug instead of facegrab, because although her aspect doesn't deal in bonds, she can at least provide this physical example of a connection]
That's right, they did. Just like you exist, and I exist. It's other people that validate our existence, and it's through those connections, those bonds.....You can still do that for them now, and in return they can still give you strength. So don't die. Don't go into the void to never leave it again. Live.
I know, I know you haven't really given up, or I wouldn't be here. Because you wouldn't be.....you'd already be gone.
[a squeeze]
You're the only one who can break those links. You have that power. And you haven't.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 10:54 am (UTC)Why does it have to be ME?! Why do...why do I always have to be the one looking, saving, standing, why does it always have to be me?!
Why....why do I...why can't I just be allowed to have them?!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-27 06:50 pm (UTC)also let's see about tapping into the what and why of those purple with black/blue/vibrant red bonds while hug is not allowed to be broken off]
Because I guess you're the only one who can. But you don't have to do it alone, even if it feels like you don't have any other choice to. You're not alone now. I won't abandon you no matter how hard you try to push me away.
[part of being a good friend is riding out the emotional explosions - sadness, anger, fear - and not turning your back on that person even if they seem too far gone to be saved, to be helped]
I don't know. I don't know why what you want keeps being taken from you. It's stupid and cruel. But....I believe you can change that. You're someone who can steal from nothing to make anything. And, you're you - one of the most loyal people I've ever known. I feel safe trusting you to do something that seems impossible, because you already have.....because you wouldn't leave it like this.
Your friends would feel the same.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 03:39 am (UTC)[Red is promises. Current bonds, and promises to help get the bonds of before, to not have to go it alone. It's also got a lot of Blood tied into it.]
[The blue is void. Void being stolen, taken away from her, give her room to think, to breathe against it's call when there's so little to combat it.]
I'm not. I can't do the impossible, I keep trying, and I can't! I keep fucking it up, making it worse, and I can't fix it, Hydra!
[She's sobbing.] I just want the people I love, the people who want ME, and I don't know why I have to keep fighting so hard just to have it! Wasn't sixteen years long enough?!
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 05:02 am (UTC)Focus on the promises. The bonds, those precious connections, the support and strength they offer.
Infuse them with blinding light, bring to attention the unshakable truth of them. There's other options, other possibilities. Still, even now, there are. It doesn't have to be like this. Make them more important than the despair and fear and disbelief.]
You can.
[Firm, a certainty with no give in it.]
And you do have that. You have it right now. Because I want you. And you know I don't lie.
Re: RAGE
Date: 2015-01-28 05:26 am (UTC)[She flinches back.]
I...you could do so much better than me!
[See, there might have been a reason she was so good at helping you. '-']
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