thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

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From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Like what?

From:

pawper

[PAUSES.....]

Like.....my real name.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[=O]

Oooooh.

From:

pawper

I've known it for awhile, but haven't told anyone. Not....because I don't trust anyone with it, just.....it's attached to a part of my life I'm not proud of. I was trying to deny that part ever happened.

But Roxy, the rest of Roxy, made me realize I couldn't keep doing that.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

....

I'm glad. [Smiles.]

It's...it hurts, when things aren't working right.

I'm glad you won't have to deal with that hurt anymore.

From:

pawper

[smiling, a bit weakly]

Thanks. And....yeah, you've got it right. Denying that part of myself was keeping me, the me I am now, from healing. And I definitely couldn't have realized that by myself.

[going to get out of the pool and sit on the edge, dripping]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Will climb out beside her.]

...it's...good you were helped too. Even if you had to go through a bunch of difficult things for it.

From:

pawper

[She studies her wet godtier outfit thoughtfully, wondering if she still has her wolf-y powers.]

Sometimes going through the difficult stuff is what a person needs, in order to understand. I think it was worth it.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She would indeed.]

...

[She's gonna hug her again.]

From:

pawper

[squished!!!]

Eh? Roxy?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

I....

Ngggh, words are hard and I'm not good at 'em.

From:

pawper

[...squishes back]

That's okay. I'm not the best with them either, sometimes. But I think as long as we try, we'll make it work out.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.]

I just...

I'm sorry you had to be hurt. And I'm glad you learned. And that you helped. Just kinda wish you didn't have to?

From:

pawper

[thinking....and also nodding]

Uh-huh. It'd be....really great, if we didn't need help because we were fine, and if we didn't get hurt. If everything happened without pain, and was still meaningful and important.

But....I don't know. I'm not mad at you, or any part of Roxy, for what's happened. I don't regret anything. But I also don't want to dismiss your feelings.