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[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Sup dawg, welcome to Roxy's voicemail! I actually have a voicemail, aw yeah. Leave a message after the tone~!

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[miasmajesty]

[ He resists for a while. Just. Keeps his eyes shut and thinks that it'd be kind of nice to fall asleep like this. Relaxing. Kind of safe, in a way he's long overdue to feel.

But eventually he does, slightly apprehensive. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

You do kinda suck with the interpersonal relationships thing. [Because god knows if she's just nice, he'll start 'correcting' her in his head.] You fucked up with Jake, you were jerky with Jane at least at home.

You also didn't even have silly aliens to kinda learn what do with in person socializing. So yeah, you're gonna fuck up. You're human, humans who grew up with society fuck up all the time accordin' to movies and psyche studies. Hell, we're kids, if we grew up in norm society, everyone would be sayin' we're still growing and learning or whatever other after school special stuff.

But you know, even if you fucked up with two, you didn't fuck up with Calliope. And her bro doesn't count 'cause he's a crazy evil asshole.

And...and even if I made you think otherwise sometimes, you never fucked up with me.

You were always kind, and patient when you didn't have to be, and only ever told me what I deserved to hear. With me, you never needed to change how you acted because it was reasonable and the best you could do in that sitch. You were perfectly fine being you with me. Never needed to change a thing.

Just sayin', for a dude who literally knew five people, with one not countin' 'cause asshole, you fucked up with half and were fine with the other half. Not bad numbers at all. Hell, if we count the clown, you were doing well with THREE people.

[And Lil Hal was your splinter and that's serious projection, let's not get into that.]

[miasmajesty]

[ Ordinarily, tough love would be just what the doctor ordered. It had always worked in the past. A nice sharp kick in the ass to remind him to get over his problems and move on.

But ruminating on those fuckups - not just for the six months he'd been left alone with them, but the time before that. Hashing that shit out with himself, trying to figure out how the fuck to deal when he couldn't get away from it. Knowing you botched half of the relationships you'd ever had doesn't do great things when you're too far gone to do anything about it.

He just sighs through his nose and shuts his eyes, nodding slowly. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

And.

Y'know, you were talkin' to Jane before the moons exploded. And had six months here. So sounds like it'd be pretty easy to be square with Jane if you two ain't already.

Jake still cares about you. Still trusted you when he was probs freaked out. Give it time and I'm pretty sure you two can square it away too.

Isn't that what this place is? Another chance? Your friends are here, you got two bros now, seems like a pretty good opportunity to take advantage of.

[miasmajesty]

Roxy.

[ There's the slightest strain to his voice. ]

Can we stop talking about this. Please.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

[The worst part is she does. She doesn't want to push and hurt him, but wasn't her NOT pushing part of why things got so bad?]

[miasmajesty]

[ He goes quiet again. Letting his eyes shut and trying to lose himself in sleep - but that doesn't come. ]

I know. Okay? I'm all too aware. I've had to deal with myself more than anyone ever should. I know all of my flaws and shortcomings. I've had a long time to uselessly ruminate over it here.

[ He brings a hand up to cover his face. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She sighs.] You're not gettin' the point at all.

It's not you have flaws.

It's you're still likable and perfectly able to be a good friend despite 'em.

[miasmajesty]

Maybe in small doses.

[ He pinches the bridge of his nose. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Nah, big doses are good too. I'm sure plenty of peeps will agree.

...when was the last time you slept?

[miasmajesty]

Maybe, but that's probably because I've more or less harrassed them into a grim acceptance of my presence in their lives.

[ ......... ]

Last night. [ LIE LIKE THE WIND DIRK ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Dirk. Dirk, no, that's dumb. Who even does that?

[....]

Okay, you either lyin', or you're counting like a ten minute cat nap.

[miasmajesty]

Me.

[ Ok, well, technically Bro Strider. ]

Maybe it was the night before.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Dirk, who even harassed you into a grim acceptance of their presence in your life? Do I need to teach someone some manners, 'cause I will.

...uh huh. And can your body actually maintain that without hearty abilities?

[miasmajesty]

Dave.

[ ......... ]

Probably.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...wait, seriously? You dun want him around? Or are you saying he talked himself into it, 'cause I think I'm gonna have to get that out of him 'fore I believe it. [Rose wanted to see her.]

[Surely Dave wanted to see him?]

...so no.

[miasmajesty]

No. I'm saying that he wants me around, when he really fucking shouldn't. Whatever altme did to him, but that kid thinks a lot of awful shit is normal and takes comfort in people being awful to him so long as they have a reason.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Are you awful to him? You you, not you taking blame for an alternate you have no control over.

[miasmajesty]

My alternates don't work the same way yours do.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Dirk, if you were in control of an alternate you, you would have loved that boy and did everything you could to take care of him.

[miasmajesty]

That's the fucked up thing. I probably thought I did.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Do you remember anything? Get...anything 'bout it?

[miasmajesty]

Not really. [ Long, quiet sigh. ] I won't talk a lot about it. That's his deal, his damage to share. But I fucked him up bad. Pretty sure whatever went down wasn't dissimilar to the Jake situation, but whereas Brobot was a more extreme version of something he wanted, it was just straight up child abuse. Apparently, that's my idea of teaching the kid the ropes of being a Strider.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Hmmmm. Still dun think it counts. Seems like a bad road to go down, taking all the mistakes and such from our alternates. Starts....blinding you and stuff.

And, I mean, you can be better than that if ya know what to watch for.

[miasmajesty]

Well, like I said: my alters are different. Bro Strider is still inherently Dirk Strider, just... older.