thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Run to where?

"Anywhere! Anywhere that is not on fire, the ocean?!"

[ hey, hey he might be a water nut, but that is legit even if he isn't. ocean = safe from fire. it's a very valid thing ]

Where's--

[ no. no, he can't. he was told to go to the lab ]

I can't. You should go find safety. I have somewhere I need to go.

"Safety is the only place you should need to go to!"

[But Carapacian will totally just ditch you, they are kinda Rude.]

[ he's okay with that. hoping the best for it, since he needs to focus on the lab and getting there. and that's exactly where he's aiming for once again ]

[Roll a ten sider]

[ and guess who got even lower than two? ]

[You Free Boys and your Destiny]

[And that would be how it feels like to have every hope, dream, and everything you cherished violently ripped from you and crushed before your eyes.]

[You are now in a void.]

[ and then he understands what she meant about the void. how... easy it could be to let it swallow him. just like how easy it could be to let himself sink into the water. after all those feelings, after that break... being consumed doesn't sound so bad. and for the moment, he'll just... float ]

[Your phone will just start pinging you now.]

TG: hey
TG: hey
TG: hey listen
TG: cascade
TG: haru
TG: HEY

[ it will take him a moment, but he registers this and pulls his phone out to look at it, eyes barely reading the words ]

CW: what

TG: u know why roxy has been a mess?
TG: that memory
TG: i mean she was always kinda wrecked
TG: but it made a boat that could still be a boat
TG: if suck boat
TG: and just filled it with a bunch of holes
TG: the damage from that mem is what youve been counteracting.

CW: but now i can understand
CW: that self-blame of rage
CW: the pain of doom
CW: that fake smile on life
CW: what breath couldn't protect
CW: the loneliness in the water
CW: and i can see why this void is so calming
CW: i feel like i've been naive
CW: this entire time
CW: and that i still don't really understand

TG: ....
TG: just
TG: hang on for a min
TG: dun put away ur phone
TG: ok?

TG: hey hon
TG: got the bad 1 huh?
TG: was kinda hoping u wouldnt
TG: but no real changing it now i guess

Edited 2015-01-27 08:57 (UTC)

CW: is this
CW:
CW:
CW: doom?

TG: yeah its me
TG: knight light said i should talk 2 u
TG: so feelin like u still dun understand huh?
TG:
TG: do u kno part of why i make ppl understand my room?
TG: like theres the reason i told u
TG: the whole needing to see the whole swimmer
TG: but i believe light told u roxy is someone whose usually got ulteriors
TG: wanna kno mine?

CW: i would

TG: alright
TG: problems
TG: to continue with the water metaphors cuz ur a water nerd
TG: imagine a river is polluted
TG: which is bad cuz it means things die in the water n its unsafe
TG: plus hella ugly
TG: so u need to do things to clean out the water
TG: dunno what u actually do for that but u do stuff
TG: get the junk out
TG: clean the water
TG: might have some bits left but those bits arent harmful anymore
TG: thats a problem u fix wit water
TG: like how u have to actually fix some problems
TG: but
TG: now imagine a tsunami
TG: its water coming in
TG: mowing shit down
TG: n its basically unstoppable
TG: there is no way to stop that water from comin in n doin its thing
TG: what you CAN do
TG: is understand it
TG: understand what tsunamis will do
TG: accept it will be a thing
TG: n just be prepared to deal with the fallout whenever it might happen
TG: cuz sometimes thats the thing with problems
TG: its not bout fixing the problem
TG: its bout understanding it
TG: cuz u cant change it
TG: just acknowledge it n do stuff that doesnt make it worse
TG: n sometimes
TG: thats all u need with ppl
TG: sometimes its never bout fixing the problem
TG: but understanding it
TG: trying to understand it
TG: the tsunami still exists
TG: but it doesnt seem like its gonna wreck everything anymore
TG: n if it does
TG: there will be ppl to help with the clean up
TG: that helps
TG: that helps a lot
TG: esp with someone like me
TG: cuz theres so few ppl in this world who can understand
TG: that i let understand
TG: n it means the world 2 me when ppl want to try anyway

CW: even when it's someone like me
CW: that you only met briefly before this
CW: seeing all these things

TG: admittedly
TG: i try not to shovel on the heavy shit on ppl i just met
TG: but eh
TG: desperate times desperate measures
TG: i dun think it was the wrong choice tho
TG: ur still tryin to understand for my sake arent you?
TG: that seems like a good nuff reason to keep trustin u
TG: youll be good 4 me i think
TG: hopefully i can return the favor

CW: you've already helped me a lot too
CW: in ways i can't explain
CW: in ways i didn't want but needed
CW: you answered things i needed
CW: even if it wasn't about you
CW: it might take me a while to recover from this
CW: but i don't regret it
CW: i still want to help
CW: i want to get to know you
CW: outside of here

TG: im glad 2 hear that
TG: take all the time u need to recover
TG: no need to rush it
TG: u have time
TG: n u have ppl who care bout you
TG: n will help u
TG: but im sure youll get there
TG: ur a pretty strong guy
TG: id like that
TG: getting to kno u

CW: i don't feel strong
CW: right now
CW: but
CW: i
CW: thank you

TG: no i imagine u dont
TG: most wouldnt
TG: ur welcome
TG: n ill be here til youre ready to move on
TG: dun worry
TG: time gets weird in the void anyway

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