Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

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ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

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Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Your phone will just start pinging you now.]

TG: hey
TG: hey
TG: hey listen
TG: cascade
TG: haru
TG: HEY

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

[ it will take him a moment, but he registers this and pulls his phone out to look at it, eyes barely reading the words ]

CW: what

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: u know why roxy has been a mess?
TG: that memory
TG: i mean she was always kinda wrecked
TG: but it made a boat that could still be a boat
TG: if suck boat
TG: and just filled it with a bunch of holes
TG: the damage from that mem is what youve been counteracting.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: but now i can understand
CW: that self-blame of rage
CW: the pain of doom
CW: that fake smile on life
CW: what breath couldn't protect
CW: the loneliness in the water
CW: and i can see why this void is so calming
CW: i feel like i've been naive
CW: this entire time
CW: and that i still don't really understand

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: ....
TG: just
TG: hang on for a min
TG: dun put away ur phone
TG: ok?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: hey hon
TG: got the bad 1 huh?
TG: was kinda hoping u wouldnt
TG: but no real changing it now i guess

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: is this
CW:
CW:
CW: doom?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: yeah its me
TG: knight light said i should talk 2 u
TG: so feelin like u still dun understand huh?
TG:
TG: do u kno part of why i make ppl understand my room?
TG: like theres the reason i told u
TG: the whole needing to see the whole swimmer
TG: but i believe light told u roxy is someone whose usually got ulteriors
TG: wanna kno mine?

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: i would

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: alright
TG: problems
TG: to continue with the water metaphors cuz ur a water nerd
TG: imagine a river is polluted
TG: which is bad cuz it means things die in the water n its unsafe
TG: plus hella ugly
TG: so u need to do things to clean out the water
TG: dunno what u actually do for that but u do stuff
TG: get the junk out
TG: clean the water
TG: might have some bits left but those bits arent harmful anymore
TG: thats a problem u fix wit water
TG: like how u have to actually fix some problems
TG: but
TG: now imagine a tsunami
TG: its water coming in
TG: mowing shit down
TG: n its basically unstoppable
TG: there is no way to stop that water from comin in n doin its thing
TG: what you CAN do
TG: is understand it
TG: understand what tsunamis will do
TG: accept it will be a thing
TG: n just be prepared to deal with the fallout whenever it might happen
TG: cuz sometimes thats the thing with problems
TG: its not bout fixing the problem
TG: its bout understanding it
TG: cuz u cant change it
TG: just acknowledge it n do stuff that doesnt make it worse
TG: n sometimes
TG: thats all u need with ppl
TG: sometimes its never bout fixing the problem
TG: but understanding it
TG: trying to understand it
TG: the tsunami still exists
TG: but it doesnt seem like its gonna wreck everything anymore
TG: n if it does
TG: there will be ppl to help with the clean up
TG: that helps
TG: that helps a lot
TG: esp with someone like me
TG: cuz theres so few ppl in this world who can understand
TG: that i let understand
TG: n it means the world 2 me when ppl want to try anyway

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: even when it's someone like me
CW: that you only met briefly before this
CW: seeing all these things

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: admittedly
TG: i try not to shovel on the heavy shit on ppl i just met
TG: but eh
TG: desperate times desperate measures
TG: i dun think it was the wrong choice tho
TG: ur still tryin to understand for my sake arent you?
TG: that seems like a good nuff reason to keep trustin u
TG: youll be good 4 me i think
TG: hopefully i can return the favor

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: you've already helped me a lot too
CW: in ways i can't explain
CW: in ways i didn't want but needed
CW: you answered things i needed
CW: even if it wasn't about you
CW: it might take me a while to recover from this
CW: but i don't regret it
CW: i still want to help
CW: i want to get to know you
CW: outside of here

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: im glad 2 hear that
TG: take all the time u need to recover
TG: no need to rush it
TG: u have time
TG: n u have ppl who care bout you
TG: n will help u
TG: but im sure youll get there
TG: ur a pretty strong guy
TG: id like that
TG: getting to kno u

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: i don't feel strong
CW: right now
CW: but
CW: i
CW: thank you

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: no i imagine u dont
TG: most wouldnt
TG: ur welcome
TG: n ill be here til youre ready to move on
TG: dun worry
TG: time gets weird in the void anyway

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: what do you mean by weird

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: time n space dun matter
TG: could take fifty years to cross two feet
TG: or cross a thousand miles in ten seconds
TG: so like
TG: u could have a while
TG: n not get immediately ganked out of heart

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: ...ah
CW: how did you leave the void
CW: after this
CW: what brought you back

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: back home?
TG: im not sure i did
TG: far as i can figure is something probs happened to john
TG: cuz so much shenanigans that will just be confusing to get into
TG: but with how things played out he probably didnt make it long
TG: or who knows
TG: mb reapers swept in after
TG: but w/e it was
TG: wasnt comin from me
TG: here?
TG:
TG: vetoed pointed out a few things
TG: a few
TG: very longshots
TG: that have been buyin time
TG: but not nuff to last long term
TG: on its own anyway
TG: everything here should help
TG: but i was hurtin
TG: member life roxy?
TG: thats bout norm roxy behavior
TG: all the high energy cheer
TG: so when we met i was supes down

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: sounds like it would be
CW: maybe we can talk about it
CW: sometime
CW: it's good that life has gotten help
CW: and is less fragile
CW: even if we can't fix it all here
CW: there's time outside
CW: so
CW: how much have people been able to help
CW: here in rage
CW: do you know

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: itd do me some good
TG: should be a lil less of a pain bout it
TG: always kind of am but u got far nuff to avoid the worse
TG: sometimes its good to get help naturally
TG: shes good nuff to be fixed like that
TG: which is the most important thing
TG: more stuff in hope will help to
TG: sorta
TG: since were connected
TG: ppl have made good progress
TG: dealing with some old issues that have been festing
TG: and no longer a stones throw away from just walking into the void n never comin back

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: ...good
CW: i hope i didn't make it worse
CW: when talking to her earlier
CW: after that memory
CW: i wanted to talk to her more
CW: but then this happened

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

TG: u didnt
TG: she
TG: needed a break
TG: of some kind
TG: she was turning norm coping mechanisms
TG: into outright lies
TG: which isnt something we want to do?
TG: misdirection and ommission is our jam
TG: but outright lies r rare
TG: heart is after hope
TG: she can send ya anywhere u want
TG: she wouldnt mind if u visited

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

CW: i'll visit you too
CW: before i leave
CW: you helped me
CW: a lot
CW: you and knight light
CW: i might have kept drifting here
CW: but i want to continue on now