Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

Heart Prep | Sign in for SCORED runs | Chumroll | MEMO, oh god | Passive Skills (PLEASE FILL OUT, true godtiers can wait, but need Faketiers when you enter) | Mechanics

IRC: #Voidheart. Plurk pings: Alwaysterrible.

Original Heart Post

ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

Comments

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

I know, but you're right. Apologies aren't what I'm going for.

What are you going for?

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

It's just... you were so looking forward to meeting her, but then...

...I can't even pretend to know how that feels. At least I had some time with my mom, before she died.

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

I'm not the feelings, Sol.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

I know that. I can't just not tell you though.

[He's still not very good at this, can you tell?]

Doom is understanding... You're not emotional, you're not just a reminder... Acceptance that it happened?

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Hitting the right vein of thought. Just akes the right questions.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

I'm guessing 'so what is it then?' isn't one of those.

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Red blood.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

Tan, don't.

I'll be fine, Fiere.

[because yeah, going over to touch the red blood now despite his fox's protests]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[You touched the red blood and suddenly there is knowledge in your head. You’re the last. You were always the last. The last of the human race dead centuries before, the last of your Neighborhood that burned down, the last of your universe, twice over, once from the Red Miles, another from the Reapers.]

[The last of your friends, of your family, with no more cheats, saves, tricks, or alternatives.]

[Forever the last one standing, little rogue Roxy.]

[Growing up on islands of graves and seas of blood.]

[Fifth time's the charm for you to really be the last of your whole reality. Fifth time to make it stick with no one left to save.]

[Finally, Roxy changes and you see it. The small wounds through her chest, and the bigger one just below her heart. The burns, blue lips and finger tips. The marks of vines around her body, and the pieces of her that just seem...missing.]

[Her eyes no longer yellow, but an eerie, blank white.]

[Well, at least he didn't die this time.]

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

[...Yeah sorry this is kind of rude sorry but he's just going to stare for a moment silently because how do you even respond to this]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Your teammate has been hiding some shit.]

Take your time.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

[His immediate gut reaction would be to go hug her, comfort her, assure her that she's not alone

but this isn't the loneliness, that was probably Miss Lonelybutt over in Time.

Does he say that she's really strong for still being here despite everything? ...No, that's shounen.

Doom is understanding. Shounen and emotion is wrong, no matter his own gut. A record is closer but still wrong. Acceptance is on the right track but still wrong.]

...Acknowledgement? Of everything that's happened to you. Of the fact that you're still here despite everything. That you're here.

[...god he's so bad at this.]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

[She stands up, approaching him.]

Very close. Scope and timing are off. Fuschia blood.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

[He nods. All right, fuchsia blood it is then.]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[You don't want to kill.]

[But you see an alien woman.]

[You know her every crime. Everything she has done to you. How much she has taken. How much excessive cruelty she's performed simply because she COULD. To you, to everyone around you, to so many alien races. How unrepentant she is, how she targets you, and your friends.]

[How she demands you to save her race for her to enslave as she took away yours.]

[How she killed the last of your family twice.]

[And suddenly it's so very easy to imagine yourself draining every tyrian drop from her body just to make sure SHE STAYED DOWN.]

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

[...Okay yeah no. He's been able to take dying repeatedly, but no matter who it is or how much the Batterwitch may deserve it, the thought of his hands murdering another (and a girl no less, species be damned), even if it's imaginary...

Sorry, but he's throwing up on the floor again. It's smaller this time, and mostly acid because he hasn't eaten anything, but.]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[You need to visit Life, bro.]

[Doom will wait and there's another ping.]

[Death. In all forms.]

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

[but he wants to help, and Knight Roxy said this was the way to go for that

but death in all forms, huh...]

...Acknowledgement that. That all of this death happened. To everyone, not just you.

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Then what does that mean? [Gestures to the Fuchsia blood.]

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

...That it's not going to end until that woman is stopped.

I mean, she's not the only cause. But she's caused so much pain... I can't fault you for hating her that much.

[which is a statement that leans on emotion but you know what he's getting tired of this]

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

[Sighs.]

No. This room isn't about 'cause.' You're pulling away from the answer you had.

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

That she exists, then? It's not your hatred of her, you're not emotion.

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

No, it's not. Esp since she wouldn't be responsible for Cry Wolf, now would she?

Re: DOOM

[secretofthefox]

Like I said, she's not the only cause...

...Argh, I'm trying. I really am. It's acknowledging something, I've got that much.

Re: DOOM

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Do you know what Schrodinger's Cat is?

[If he doesn't, Fiere will. Sprite pings go go.]