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From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

You're a morbid sort, aren't you?

Not so much a bother as it's not what I'm supposed to be. Knight Light is the information one.

From:

forthemackerel

...I really don't know. I only arrived here at Kyriakos two days ago. With only a memory of craving birds. So, I can't really say.

It's just... you talked about that isolating and lonely feeling. I know I can't fix things here, that isn't what we're supposed to do. But it also doesn't mean I can't help with it by talking to you. I already made that mistake earlier.

[ even if he did go back and ~~screw everything up~~ ~~unleash trickster hell~~ fix some of it ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Only two days? Haaa, not long at all.

[She holds out her hands to him.]

Why do you think it happened earlier?

From:

forthemackerel

[ nods. ah... he'll reach out and take those hands offered ]

I didn't understand anything earlier. I was told to spread good feelings, so when I saw you smiling, I assumed you were happy and things were fine. When I was brought back by the feelings of hurting, I realized I was wrong. That I had to do something there.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Squeezing his.]

[Though hers are...cold like death. Sorry bro.]

So, you think if you understood it better, you might have handled it better?

From:

forthemackerel

[ at least he doesn't pull away or anything ]

...I don't know. Knight Light Roxy mentioned other people just going through the room without stopping, too. The only time people seemed to focus on the room was after Trickster was released.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.] It's true.

After all, it's so easy to think nothing is dire s'long as you got a smile plastered on it. Most won't look below the surface.

Kinda like water, almost. Could look perfectly calm on top, but once you're in, you discover there's an under current ready to pull you under.

From:

forthemackerel

[ that... is probably one of the best things she could tell him. really connecting it for him to something he understands ]

Maybe that's why I was drawn back by the water. Trying to make that connection. I thought what I did was wrong, but if it's helping fix that hurt...

[ nods at that thermos ]

That was from her.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She nods.] I know. Life is my counter balance.

She's all 'bout change, I'm not to change at all.

But how to handle us, it starts from the same first step.

From:

forthemackerel

Mm. I see.

Is that first step trying to understand? Or is it something else?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.] That's right.

From:

forthemackerel

I'll try harder to do that.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.] Good.

Now.

You have some ideas about the room, right?

What do you 'understand' about it so far?

From:

forthemackerel

With what you just mentioned about Life... This room being a counter balance, it... You're a grounding force. Fixed and stable to even out the free and sporadic side of Life. It's...

[ sighs, he's going to have to go for water metaphors, since it's easier to explain for him ]

It's like with swimming earlier, you have to compensate and have everything working together. Each part of your body working with the water. If something is too far off, one way or another, that unevenness causes a drag and the water will pull you down and consume you. There needs to be a harmony between yourself and the water.

[ which... is to say, a harmony between the positive and negative emotions, working together ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nod, nod.]

This is very true.

And for that, you have to acknowledge every part of your body, don't you? It's no good if you just let your leg dangle, is it?

From:

forthemackerel

Of course. It takes every part to function.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.]

Being close to people, connecting with people, it's like swimming. Gotta have the ability to acknowledge all those parts.

You understand, why I'm not 'bout change?

From:

forthemackerel

You're a fixed point. This pain is something that shouldn't be erased since it's part of what forms you. And any change... would erase that.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.]

That's right.

As much as I would like to change it....it's still part of who I am.

It still makes up who 'Roxy' is.

From:

forthemackerel

[ lightly squeezes her hands ]

But you also don't need to carry the burden alone. Even if we can't fully understand, it's obvious there are a lot of people that care about you. That they're willing to go through anything to prove that. You don't need to change, but... there will be people to help with those weights trying to pull you down.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She smiles, looks amused, but also sad.]

I know.

That's why I'm makin' y'all go through here.

'cause I'm kinda stupid as a whole, but I'm willing to do what I need. Plus, y'know, it'll help with what comes next.