Heart Game (Continued)
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thevoidsdarkhorse
[There's nothing]
[Nothing]
[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]
[Isn't that wonderful though?]
IRC: #Voidheart. Plurk pings: Alwaysterrible.
Original Heart Post
ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 10:50 am (UTC)Damn it...
Is it ... that you feel like you couldn't do anything about it?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 10:52 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 10:56 am (UTC)[ Going over to the blood (and paint? Somehow he has a feeling it's not paint but other colored blood is weird. He doesn't touch it, but he stares. And he tries to see if he can get an idea of what he needs to touch, where he needs to go to understand. ]
Are these different? Than the team colors.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:00 am (UTC)[Red and Fuchsia.]
All depends. Are you asking if there's a theme for items? No, nothing that deliberate. It's all 'bout associations.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:01 am (UTC)[ Well those two pulls are. Pulls.
So he sucks in a breath and goes for the red first! ]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:04 am (UTC)[You touched the red blood and suddenly there is knowledge in your head. You’re the last. You were always the last. The last of the human race dead centuries before, the last of your Neighborhood that burned down, the last of your universe, twice over, once from the Red Miles, another from the Reapers.]
[The last of your friends, of your family, with no more cheats, saves, tricks, or alternatives.]
[Forever the last one standing, little rogue Roxy.]
[Growing up on islands of graves and seas of blood.]
[Fifth time's the charm for you to really be the last of your whole reality. Fifth time to make it stick with no one left to save.]
[Finally, Roxy changes and you see it. The small wounds through her chest, and the bigger one just below her heart. The burns, blue lips and finger tips. The marks of vines around her body, and the pieces of her that just seem...missing.]
[Her eyes no longer yellow, but an eerie, blank white.]
[But hey, didn't die that time, and no vines!]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:24 am (UTC)Not that this doesn't hit him any less. ]
... not that you couldn't do anything about it, whether you tried or not, but that you had to deal with it, you had to live through it, experience it so many times, over and over again. While things that were parts of your own life, parts of you, the things you loved, were stripped away and destroyed. So even if you're alive at the end of those things ... it feels like parts of you are dead, gone. Is that part of it, too?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:31 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:32 am (UTC)Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:34 am (UTC)[But you see an alien woman.]
[You know her every crime. Everything she has done to you. How much she has taken. How much excessive cruelty she's performed simply because she COULD. To you, to everyone around you, to so many alien races. How unrepentant she is, how she targets you, and your friends.]
[How she demands you to save her race for her to enslave as she took away yours.]
[How she killed the last of your family twice.]
[And suddenly it's so very easy to imagine yourself draining every tyrian drop from her body just to make sure SHE STAYED DOWN.]
[So, that was her version of your sister.]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:42 am (UTC)Ah.
I resonate so fucking much with this one.
He jerks away from the fuchsia, much more harshly than the other ones. His breathing is uneven, like he's trying to bottle up a sudden rush of sheer rage, as well as delight from that thought of seeing somebody like that die and stay dead. Someone like her. ]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 11:44 am (UTC)[Doom will just wait.]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:08 pm (UTC)This kind of world ... is the only one you've known, because of her. Nothing can change that, and only so much can ease it. It's just something that's part of you, that can't just disappear or be ignored.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:11 pm (UTC)[She gestures for him to approach the throne as she sits up properly.]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:36 pm (UTC)There are parts of me ... memories that I don't like either, ones like that, ones that hurt, that I wish I could erase. That I wish never happened at all. Home ... here.
But they work the same way as the good parts that I want to hold onto. They're what made me ... me. And without even one of them ... well, it's rather inconceivable, to imagine what you would be like with or without something, good or bad. You only know what you are as you are, with those experiences. Even if they're horrible.
[ When he gets to the throne, he reaches for her hand first. ]
I know you're about understanding, accepting, and not about changing this place . But ... all the same. That doesn't mean you can't be eased when things in here get ... to be too much. So I hope we can do that for you, in those times. Even if it's through the other parts of you.
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:44 pm (UTC)[She stands up.]
I'm just facts, in the end. But it's important, for this part to be seen. I, all of me, need understanding.
But helping how I feel about it, that comes next. Lean over a bit?
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:47 pm (UTC)Thanks, Roxy.
[ And then he leans over. ]
Re: DOOM
Date: 2015-01-26 12:59 pm (UTC)[She leans forward to kiss his forehead with cold lips.]
[You hate it.]
[It's not as if you don't understand. You know to Jane, it makes no sense, the things you tell her. She's centuries in the past, of course she wouldn't believe you when you tell her how you grew up.]
[About what you've lost.]
[Because to her, it hasn't happened.]
[But it hurts. It still hurts as she denies such basic facts of your life.]
[How she treats it like it doesn't exist.]
[And it feels like you don't exist]