Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

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ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

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Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[O-oh.]

[And there's tears in her eyes now and you are GETTING A BITTY HUG.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[Gently returns it!! One arm to start with, so Roxy doesn't feel trapped. And.....kissing the top off her head, laughing quietly.]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's a slight jolt because HOLY SHIT, YOU'RE WARM AND SOFT.]

[But she's gonna keep hugging and maybe cry on you a bit.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[gently strokes her hair, murmuring reassurances and soft words of gratitude]

.....you don't have to be alone.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

S.....

Sa...fe?

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[nodding]

That's right.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She let's out a soft sigh and leans against her.]

[Good.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[GOD YOU'RE SO CUTE?????]

I love you, Roxy.

[it's meant platonically in this case since, you know, 5 year old]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Who doesn't love a bitty.]

[Looking up startled at those words.]

[She's only heard those from her mom on screen, okay.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[brushes some hair back behind an ear, and repeats:]

I love you. I want to tell you that as many times as you want to hear it.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[O-oh.]

[Little bitty doesn't know how to take this.]

[MAYBE SHE WILL JUST CLING AND CRY ON YOU.]

[How about that.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[WHAT A NICE CHANGE FROM ALL THE SAD AND BLOOD AND DANGER

just gonna gently cling back and do more hairtouching

let out those tears!!!]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She cries and cries and cries, but eventually quiets and just hugs for a little longer.]

[But the mood whiplash comes and you're back in the Neighborhood, in front of a tall building.]

TG: thats the lab
TG: need to get on the roof
TG: theres a ladder down
TG: n also
TG: be a good friend

[And then it disconnected.]

[Which might be a bit vague except you can now also see a figure standing in between you and the building.]

[It’s Roxy. Standing there in a t-shirt, skirt, and leggings, her mother’s scarf wrapped around her. In her hand is a piece of glass covered in blood, her own clothes stained the same. Around her are bodies. The bodies of her friends and Rose.]

[She looks over her shoulder at you, and she’s smiling, but her eyes are empty. She turns to you, and perhaps you’ll realize the blood is HERS. She’s covered in jagged injuries, but nowhere vital. Those spots are covered in bands of tiamt-with-black, a vibrant red, and blue. She holds out the shard of glass.]

Kill me.

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[OW WHIPLASH

OW PROBABLY LOST MY WEAPONS FOR GOOD

OW NOW THIS FRESH HELL]

.....

Why?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[No, they're back in your sylladex, HEART IS THOUGHTFUL.]

'Cause I wanna die.

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[thank you heart i didn't want to leave pointy stabby things in you]

[.....

She's seen those eyes before, reflected back at her in the gazes of fellow Silver Fangs during certain memories. Lys had wanted to die in the most permanent sense of the word. But she couldn't, because her werewolf body wouldn't allow her to. She'd just come back no matter what, trapped in a life she didn't want and believed she could never deserve.

Hydra had thought of her as stupid, selfish, blind to everything except her own pain. Yet here Roxy was, mirroring it.]

Why?

[A slow, careful approach.]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She gestures to the dead bodies.]

Because I'm the only one left.

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[Nodding, still closing the distance.]

Because you're always the only one left. Right?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Yes.

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

I know. And it's not fair at all. But wanting to die.....this isn't the only option you have. It's never the only option. You can't realize that right now, because you're clouded with misery.

[Quick as she can, she reaches out to take Roxy's face in both hands. Failing that, she'll grab for her shoulders.]

Friends don't let friends stay blind. I learned that from you!

[As the Light, she'll banish that clouded perception, burn away the fog of despair, and give back some much-needed clarity. Some incredibly important clarity, a clarity that refuses to be ignored. She puts all she has into the effort.]

That blood....those bonds....they're not meant to be chains, weights made of failure and loneliness, but your strength. That's what your friends and mother from home were to you, why their loss hurts so badly......and it's why me and everyone else is here!

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

The only options I have are longshots at best. Longshots compared to everything else that already was.

[The light has an affect, the empty smile shifting to just a look of pure pain and despair.]

They can't be a strength when they're gone!

[And it, unfortunately, has another affect.]

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[It's better than the emptiness. It's better than something fake. The truth can be cruel and it can be painful but it is always, always, always better than a comfortable or convenient lie.

Hydra draws strength from that thought even as the memory rocks through her system and blur her vision with tears.]

....then you make those longshots work. Rewrite the rules, make the odds change to be in your favor! And don't....don't you dare tell me those important people can't still support you! Don't you fucking dare!

I left my home for a reason I can't remember. Maybe my family's dead, too. But they're still my strength, Roxy, because I remember them! I remember how much they cared about me, that they loved me! I remember that connection!

If you die like you're saying you want to, if you give up, you're denying all of us! The memories of your friends and mother, and the friends that are here now, fighting to help you. You're pretending none of what you shared with them, or us, ever existed!

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She jerks back as if she was slapped.]

I...I would never-of course they existed!

Re: RAGE

[pawper]

[good

but now we hug instead of facegrab, because although her aspect doesn't deal in bonds, she can at least provide this physical example of a connection]

That's right, they did. Just like you exist, and I exist. It's other people that validate our existence, and it's through those connections, those bonds.....You can still do that for them now, and in return they can still give you strength. So don't die. Don't go into the void to never leave it again. Live.

I know, I know you haven't really given up, or I wouldn't be here. Because you wouldn't be.....you'd already be gone.

[a squeeze]

You're the only one who can break those links. You have that power. And you haven't.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She's shaking her head violently, trying to pull away.]

Why does it have to be ME?! Why do...why do I always have to be the one looking, saving, standing, why does it always have to be me?!

Why....why do I...why can't I just be allowed to have them?!