thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

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From:

forthemackerel

[ after looking around at the scene, he looks at her and there is a hint of wryness in his tone ]

Maybe.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

you especially.

[She pats the spot beside her.]

From:

forthemackerel

[ moves to take a seat next to her ]

Why me?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

fact we had like on five min chat and now you're here. im AFTER all the traumatic shit.

Edited Date: 2015-01-28 04:50 pm (UTC)

From:

forthemackerel

I agreed, didn't I? To go on, even after hearing the risks.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

not like id have held it against you.

[She looks at him thoughtfully.]

how are u doin?

From:

forthemackerel

I'm--

[ that catches him. he's been so caught up in the momentum and the only time he stopped was in the void. and he was decidedly Not Okay at that point ]

For the moment? ...Okay. But I don't think I've really processed a lot of this. Not properly.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

thats fair. its a lot to take in. gog knows some of it hits me like a ton of bricks.

but im here to help if i can at all.

From:

forthemackerel

I don't know if I'm ready to stop and think about all of it yet. Not until I finish what I promised I'd do.

[ looks away from her and peers out at the scene playing out ]

Is this a part that isn't supposed to be changed either?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She nods.]

heart is the core of a person. who they are. who theyre meant to be. u kno w/o all that other junk gettin in the way.

im...the sort of person roxy would become if things went right.

heh i would probs be the true heart is miss void didnt have that honor.

From:

forthemackerel

[ thinks about that, giving a slight nod ]

But then she wouldn't be Roxy. You're basically like a hope of what could have been, then?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

more or less.

im still part of her. im still a possibility. after all shes still growing and she still has all the same feelings.

itd just be after overcoming all my short comings and neurosis.

From:

forthemackerel

Even if you didn't, at least you know there are people who are wanting to be there. You're a part that comes out under the right conditions. All the different sides I've seen are.

...but I guess that's for everyone.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

yeah.

everyone has diff sides diff masks. parts of me come out but the full package has only been twice. when she godtiered and made entropis in anagrams game.

mostly she just gets the mothering bits.

From:

forthemackerel

Do you think that'll change now?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

....

[She's silent for several long moments before pulling off her belt, looking at the aspects on it.]

i was born part of a team. born to support and help hold it together. ppl who needed each other. understood each other better than anyone else could even if we did fight. cuz even in our lowest moments there wasnt any real doubt.

we r still friends. we still care. even if some of us r utter douchemuffins all it takes is a bit of reassurance to know that it could be fixed.

who im supposed to be involves them. cuz part of who im supposed to be is a creator. n i can only achieve that with them.

so....not likely that itll change where she reaches more of me.

not til she can believe she can save em beyond hopes and wishes.

Edited Date: 2015-01-28 05:35 pm (UTC)

From:

forthemackerel

Maybe she can find that here. That belief. Because wouldn't she be helping make the chance of saving them a reality if she works to regain her memories and help rebuild her world?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She smiles.]

yes she would.

but she was already doin that and honestly the whole just saving universes thing starts sounding like a chore after a certain point. bit fucked up but its how she deals with bad things. if she doesnt focus on how terrible everything is and makes it more mundane then shes good.

n she does that by making the ppl more important.

so shell need to be convinced she can save them specifically to make that change. that or find some kind of inspiration here that i cant fathom yet.

From:

forthemackerel

Mm. It's... understandable. Even with what bit I've seen. Feeling her emotions in those memories and seeing that. And I know there's a lot I haven't seen. Maybe the inspiration will come where she least expects it. When she least expects it.

Either way, she's got a lot of support for whatever happens. For whoever she is. If she's more like you or like any of her aspects some days... There are people that will accept that. I'm sure there are others that weren't even here that would, too.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

probs will. would fit bein a rogue of void. gog knows stuff has taken me by surprise b4 n made all the diff in the world.

[She nods and gestures out to the scene.] i kno. one of the lvls that realize that. it can just be hard to remember some days. but this is the kind of person she is the kind of wishes she makes n i think ppl realize that.

at least thats one idea. i have no idea how i keep attractin ppl for sure. [She grins kind of sheepishly.]

From:

forthemackerel

[ nods and there's a hint of a smile, looking out at everyone ]

I'm looking forward to seeing how all of you fit together when I meet her properly outside of here.

[ even if he will miss the individuals he's met here, even if he acknowledges they're all Roxy. they're similar, but all are distinct, in ways ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

itll be quite a trip im sure.

[So cute Haru. '^']

[She holds out a hand to him.] give me ur hand a min?

From:

forthemackerel

Mm.

[ looks over at her, taking her hand as requested ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She squeezes it, and closes her eyes. She's still for several moments, just breathing, but then the world shifts. Nothing dramatic, or shaking, but a gentle growth.]

[As water joins the scenery. Ponds, rivers, lakes.]