thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

Heart Game (Continued)

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[You dodge the rockets, but the ROBOT IS PURSUING YOU.]

[Okay, as much as he HATES doing this to such a beautiful piece of craftmanship:

STILL FLYING but trying to focus the excitement he has on seeing this devilishly handsome and dangerous creation, send it like weighted chains on top of it, restraining it down. HE WILL COME SCAVENGE YOU FOR SCIENCE LATER IF HE CAN, DON'T YOU DARE GO ANYWHERE. :D :D :D :D :D]

Edited 2015-01-26 04:19 (UTC)

[...you nerd.]

[WELL, THOSE ARE CERTAINLY SOME POWERFUL CHAINS OF NERDITUDE, SO YEAH.]

[THAT WORKS.]

[Roll a ten sider, no repeating numbers.]

[VICTORY AND YET I'M SO SORRY SIR ROBOT I REALLY HOPE I DIDN'T BREAK ANYTHING IMPORTANT THAT I CAN OTHERWISE STUDY LATER.

ahem

8!]

[Flashes. Faces, people.]

[Zelos, so frustrating, you know you've missed so much, but you're trying to understand, there has to be a way you can understand him, give him what he needs, and in a way that would stop breaking him in the process.]

[Sapphire, who you know is hurting, but she learned the truth, and she won't tell you, says you've been through enough.]

[Otacon who always looks down on himself and it seems like you can never get through those barriers.]

[Technic who you've realized shares so many of the same feelings you do, but he never listens, never let's himself be helped, and you've seen where that goes, but it's like Zelos, you can't reach out in a way that will let him reach back.]

[Hydra and Sparrow and you're afraid to tell them the truth, afraid that they'll do what Sapphire did, treat you like glass when that's not what you want, never what you want, and it's more important than anything else that they don't. You can't take the idea of someone so important looking at you with eyes like those.]

[Over and over, people you can't quite reach out in the way they need, and people pull back when you open up, and it's not what you want it's not what you want it's not what you want]

[You're by the Cove, at the edge of Kyriakos.]

[And there's Roxy, sitting at the edge of the void, staring at a book, tapping the page with her pen.]

[Well, he REALLY gets some of these. H-hahah, Hydra. Yep. Yep, he... understands that.

But once again, those feelings directed at him come full circle like a slap to the face. The martini glass, the voice spoken when he first entered Rage in its entirety... and now here.

...

It's mocking, almost, how he realizes that the advice he wants to give her would be advice he would hate to hear himself.

So he stays quiet, walking up and nudging her leg gently with the toe of his boot.]

[This is what happens when you are DESTINY.]

[She looks up and she has such a....tired, almost defeated look on her face.]

...sup.

[She looks down at the book again.]

Hey, come on. Don't give me that look.

[There's a gentle resignation to the words, despite the tease.]

You mind if I sit with you?

[She shrugged.] If you want.

[Plopping himself down next to her, then. Closer than the phobia usually allows, but goddammit he will milk this as much as he can, if it will continue to help this heart out.]

You look like you've got a lot on your mind.

Always do.

Why I'm out here. Helps organize thoughts. [Gonna start chewing on the end of her pen now.]

More than usual, I mean.

I don't mean to interrupt you.

[A pause, watching her gnaw the end of her pen.]

Do you mind if I ask you something, though?

[She waves a hand, gestures for him to go on, and it's...obvious. She's very tired.]

...Hey...

[Gently catching that hand before she can lower it.]

Roxy... I know you don't feel well right now. But this is important.

Please, look at me.

What?

[She looks up and]

[Pause.]

[Staring at his hand.]

[Raising a brow.

Yes, he's touching you. WHAT VOODOO WITCHCRAFT IS AT WORK HERE spoilers its you.]

If you could give people the chance to understand things about you, just how you try to understand things about them, how far would you go?

....

[She sets down the pen.]

Depends.

I want people to understand me.

But I'm sick of people treatin' me like glass or like I can't help 'cause of it. They learn one horrible thing and it starts. They learn more, and...well.

Yeah. Trust me, I understand.

But-- Mmm.

[Another pause as he considers something.]

...

Did I tell you about Hydra getting upset at me the other week?

No.

I ran off. Needed space to think. As nice as the team is, I get the looks, the questions. Got tired of it. So I ran, and didn't tell anyone where I went.

It felt like it was better that way, anyway, you know? I could calm down, no one had to look at me like some broken doll on a shelf in need of pity. Then I could come back and refocus on what was more important. I could be useful, like I should be. Not some sob story. Seemed like the best thing to do.

...

Hydra found out. Yelled at me. Broke my arm.

I... wouldn't be surprised if she cried that whole day.

[A wistful chuckle as he releases her hand, dropping his own into his lap.]

It's... hard to see how we're dismissing the people we love until it's too late. We're telling them we can't trust them. It's one thing to do that to strangers, sure. But...

If we can tell someone "I love you", but can't tell them "I'm afraid", then maybe we have our priorities backwards.

Ya did fuck up if Hydra was that pissed.

...

[She looks to the side.]

I know that. That's why....that's why I had to tell Sparrow first. Knew it was doomed from the start if I didn't.

She...she accepted it, rolled with it. That feeling when she did... [A fond smiile.]

[A sheepish laugh at that first part, but he won't say anything. Already been chewed up enough as it is, anyway.]

Hydra isn't the type of person to just blindly judge someone, either. You know that. She wants to understand you. You just have to give her the chance.

...I have. I....I told her, recently. Figured....nothing left to lose now...

Was meaning too for a while, but hard to get the nerve.

...So, if it was hard for you to open up about it, don't you think it might be the same when it comes to others and how they share things?

...

I wish there was an easier answer to give you, for helping people that are hard to reach. I mean, you're pretty stubborn as it is. I know you'll try everything.

But sometimes, you just have to wait for them to get the nerve to talk on their own. Pushing doesn't always make a door open if it has to be pushed from the other side, you know?

...

Are you afraid I'll pity you?

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