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From:

fuhrinkaed

...You already died.

You died to get here.

Did it help?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Didn't take. Wasn't thorough enough.

From:

fuhrinkaed

And you think you can be more thorough than a being that exists to be super ultimately thorough?

[He shakes his head.]

Roxy. I'm not going to tell you to give up on giving up. But I am going to tell you that all your friends care about you, and don't want you to die. And a lot of you doesn't want to die either.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Who says they are? Destroyers aren't exactly meticulous.

It's all pointless hoping.

From:

fuhrinkaed

...Even if it is pointless, hope's plenty.

[He puts his forehead to hers.]

So. I'm going to go on ahead. Sorry, but I can't kill you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Hope just HURTS.

Let me go.

Just....just let me go.

Let me stop.

Please.

[So much crying, looking absolutely miserable.]

From:

fuhrinkaed

...I can't do that.

I'm sorry. But I don't want to kill anyone else I like.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Then hate me. Just...hate me nuff.

From:

fuhrinkaed

[He shakes his head.]

You already know that's impossible.

I'm going to head on, now.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Shakes her head.] No. No, no, I don't-

I don't WANT anymore!

From:

fuhrinkaed

This you doesn't. And that's fine.

But other you's do. I had the hickeys to prove how much they wanted earlier.

And it's not fair to you to override them, or is it fair for them to override you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

But they are!

From:

fuhrinkaed

No, they outvoted you. That's a lot different.

It's democracy.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

They're only little fragments! They're not even whole rooms!

From:

fuhrinkaed

And you are?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

I am Rage. I am this room.

From:

fuhrinkaed

...Oh.

Then here's something I think you need.

[FOREHEAD SMOOCH.]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[And that's a punch right for his face.]

How dare you!

From:

fuhrinkaed

[MY FACE. He staggers back, making sure his glasses haven't fallen before breaking into a HUGE SMILE.]

Heh... okay then. Hate me all you like.

If your life's defined by loss and pain and you want it to end because everyone takes things from you, then that's your right as a person. But since I'm your friend, and your spadesthing besides, I'm going to look out for you because I like you--and it's my job to make you want to throttle me in a way you like.

So I'm going to keep you from wanting to die. I'll find a way to take that need from you, even if it makes you want to beat me up a little or a lot.

Because we're friends.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Shut up! [Scrubbing at her forehead.] You can't-you can't DO that! It has meaning and...and everyone leaves no matter how I bond to them!

They all leave!

You'll leave too!

From:

fuhrinkaed

That's true. I'll probably leave.

I'll come back, and wander off again, as I do. Life's like that. Partings, rejoinings, all of that... But I'll make sure that the partings are more of a 'see you later' than a 'goodbye.' After all, there's two kinds of people in this part of your heart that I've seen: The kind that take things from you and you wish would die but won't, and the kind you wish wouldn't die but do.

And then there's me, walking the balance between the two like a Monk of Mind should. So you can't just decide for me if I'm going to leave you or not. My future's not getting prewritten by anyone.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

You can't promise that.

You can't promise you'll live, that you'll always come back, you've already died once!

From:

fuhrinkaed

You're right. I can't promise that I'll live.

But you also can't promise that I'll die. Because it's always one of the two with you--and I'm both at once. So believe in the unknown--the stuff beyond what exists. That's 'void' anyways, right?