thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

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From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Yes.

From:

forthemackerel

...That must be hard for you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

It is.

I don't make it easy, admittedly, but it's natural when you exist, right? That you want to be understood.

From:

forthemackerel

[ shifting to slowly stand up, but it feels hard to do so right now ]

Do you do that to protect people? Or is it to protect yourself? The not make it easy part, I mean.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

We've lost track, honestly. Might be both.

From:

forthemackerel

I imagine this place doesn't help. Everyone here has lost their world, but they don't understand how it feels. Not like you do. Until now, I didn't even fully realize the gravity of it.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Nods.] It's...diff, being told it's a thing.

Then seein' it with your own eyes.

Almost knocked off Vetoed's head off 'cause of that argument.

[Sitting down across from him.]

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forthemackerel

I can't even imagine how that feels. Being told that.

[ looks straight at her ]

When I felt that, from the blood... All I wanted to do was erase it. Try to destroy it, like I had in other rooms. But then that'd be trying to destroy you, wouldn't it?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Infuriating and...isolating.

[She nods.]

It would be. I wouldn't allow it.

From:

forthemackerel

If I had tried and you stopped me, I wouldn't have blamed you. No matter what you'd done.

[ undertone of an apology in there, for that thought he had ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Depends what it took to stop you.

You dun need to apologize, I imagine it's a thought most had.

Do ya think you understand what this room is?

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forthemackerel

I'm... not sure. What it feels like is that everything to this point were the parts that we were trying to fix and help. Here, we're supposed to accept it. Understand there are parts that can't be fixed. That aren't supposed to be fixed.

[ brow furrows, having a hard time with this. all of it, as a whole ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[She nods.] That's correct. This room isn't 'bout fixing. It ain't 'bout change.

From:

forthemackerel

What about the rooms ahead? Are they the same? Or do I need to find out when I go there?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Oh no, you can change stuff ahead. How easy varies, but you can hella change stuff ahead.

From:

forthemackerel

So, it's just here and the last room that aren't meant for change.

If I move on, will I also be able go back later? I told another you that I'd try to see her before I left. I want to make sure things are better before this ends.

[ the one good point about sitting here with her is that he is recharging ]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Well, you can change Blood, but it probably doesn't need it so badly.

If you can get pass Hope, you'll be in a room that can take you anywhere.

From:

forthemackerel

[ nods ]

I was wondering something. That first room, just after that void, why wasn't there anyone in there?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Oh, someone is.

But Knight Light made a good case that throwing everyone into Rage right off the bat and lettin' 'em have free reign would be bad. You'll be able to see it after me.

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forthemackerel

So that first room was Rage? Why start us there, then? Why not one of the other rooms?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Because Rage is negative emotions.

Her negative emotions have been too close to the surface.

Though really, these are questions you should be asking Knight Light.

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forthemackerel

Ah. But it felt comfortable talking to you.

If it's a bother, I can ask her these things later.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

You're a morbid sort, aren't you?

Not so much a bother as it's not what I'm supposed to be. Knight Light is the information one.

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forthemackerel

...I really don't know. I only arrived here at Kyriakos two days ago. With only a memory of craving birds. So, I can't really say.

It's just... you talked about that isolating and lonely feeling. I know I can't fix things here, that isn't what we're supposed to do. But it also doesn't mean I can't help with it by talking to you. I already made that mistake earlier.

[ even if he did go back and ~~screw everything up~~ ~~unleash trickster hell~~ fix some of it ]