Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

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ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

Comments

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

You didn't. Kyriakos did.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

I should have known better. I know games, it's what I grew up with, and I....didn't even think it could....

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Had you been in many games like that before?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

It's my life.

My entire life is one big Game.

Win. Win the Game or Paradox Space will kill you dead.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

What would you have done if some other team had confessed first?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Only Epona could, only two wolves, and they weren't gonna.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

How do you would have felt if your team and Epona held out until the end and won the game? Wouldn't that victory have been worse?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...I don't know.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Why's that?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

'cause I don't know if I can kill.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Then the option you took was the only option you had. Wasn't it?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

....

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

That isn't a bad thing. You wanted to do what you thought was best, right? You couldn't have predicted what happened. Ultimately, it still was this place that killed everyone. Not you.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

I...

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Yes?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

I...I can't....

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Can't...?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

I can't just...let it go....

I....I fucked up. I fucked up so badly.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

I'm not telling you to let it go. But it still isn't your fault.

Did people blame you for it?

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...no.

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

But you blame yourself.

[ looks down ]

I felt it. In that memory just now. That desire to be found out. That you tried. If I said "you shouldn't feel like that," it's just ignoring how you're feeling, right?

I just don't want you hurting.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...why?

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

Because I said--

[ no, he can't keep using that as his cover anymore. at some point, it changed from determination to Roxy's feelings infiltrating him, to make him question what little he knows about himself, to... actually want to help her. this isn't just about a promise anymore. it's evolving into more than that ]

I care. [ not that he asked for that ] I've experienced some of your memories here. I've seen different parts of you. Parts that were pretending to be happy, but were in pain. Parts that wanted nothing more than to be understood and hurting others to share that. Parts that just wanted to protect, but couldn't protect herself. And your another part. That shares some of those qualities because you're all Roxy, right?

[ then, quieter ]

But I did also promise I would do whatever it took to help you. And I still mean that.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

[She closes her eyes, and just...let's out a breath, and there's something to that.]

[No, no, I can't look away, I did this.]

[But she is. She's not looking anymore.]

Okay.

[And suddenly you're back in the Neighborhood with all the fire, on the street now.]

[There's a building collapsing near you, and an injured Carapacian is trying to get out of the way of it.]

Re: RAGE

[forthemackerel]

[ . . . stares as he's taken away from her. there's a moment of disorientation, but he sees that building collapsing, starting to run, until his powers tap in to fly, wanting to save it ]