Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

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Original Heart Post

ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

Comments

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

But they didn't.

I was the one who did. Badass didn't want to go along with it, and I did it anyway.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

Because you had the courage to.

And you meant well. Sometimes... it does not pan out the way we expect it to. I... know that for myself as well.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Do you?

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

Yes. Whether it has been ... decisions here or in the world I am from...

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

I do not blame you for that decision.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

You should.

Got you guys killed.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

That is my decision. And I do not.

It was not your intention.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Why? Why don't you? I started it, I fucked it up!

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

The echo did. Not you.

And I do not blame you because I know you would not do something like that intentionally with a mind to harm anyone else.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

You were stuck between a rock and a hard place. I do not believe any decision anyone would have made in that game could have come out favourably.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

There might have been something.

There was defs chance for less death.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

I do not think that game was deviced to have a fair outcome, no matter what we did. And I... do not think beating yourself up over it will make yourself feel better either. What you did should have been the best solution, had not the echo acted unfairly.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

I would not want you to feel bad about something that went out of your control. Because it is not your fault.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Then why does it feel that way?

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

Because... you are a caring and kind person. If you had not been that, this would probably not have... felt like this for you.

Re: RAGE

[unguilded]

[ Oh that was a thing.

A familiar thing.

Always the vine memories. ]

... There was no fair way out of that game. Playing along ... wouldn't have changed much, how the game turned out, or how you felt about what you did if you didn't confess. It would have hurt either way ... that was the point of the game. And your actions were your own, but everything that happened after that ... wasn't your fault. Nobody even blames you for what you did, because ... a lot of us would have done the same. We understand, Roxy. And we don't hate you for it. Nor do we want you do hate yourself for it.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Vines are fun for the whole family.]

But I'm the one who did it. I'm the one who caved and started the whole chain. If I had just...just kept a cooler head or SOMETHING, people could have lived.

Re: RAGE

[unguilded]

... we don't know that for sure. And what ifs ... we shouldn't focus on the what ifs. Whether they would have turned out better, whether they would have turned out worse. The point is, we don't know. And we shouldn't dwell on it to the point where it hurts us so much. Because then we can't move on from it.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

If I don't remember, then I'll probs do it again. Can't do it again....

Re: RAGE

[unguilded]

Moving on isn't forgetting it. It's remembering, but not letting it weigh you down like it's been.

And ... "can't" is a strong word to use, too. Everybody makes mistakes, and ... maybe in the future we'll make more. All of us. That's what part of being alive is. But don't put impossible expectations on yourself like that, or else it's just going to be something else that sits on you, keeps you feeling like you're suffocating. Do your best, remember your mistakes and make choices in the future with everything you've gone through and learned in mind. They'll work ... sometimes they might not, but it's not something to hate and blame yourself for. We all love you, we'll all support you, and we'll never ... never blame you, or not forgive you, for doing something that you felt was right, something that you thought would help.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[She curls up tighter, pressing her face against her knees.]

You should.

All this big bad shit keeps happening, and I'm the common factor. Try to save the day, fuck it up. Try and be patient, still fuck it up. It always falls apart.

Re: RAGE

[unguilded]

Only you think that, because you're being too hard on yourself. I don't think I should at all, so I don't. Please ... don't try to push that away, just because you think you don't deserve it. Because you do. People wouldn't feel the way I do, if you truly didn't deserve it. Do you think we'd be here, if things really all fell apart? Telling you these things?

Things can fall apart, but they can be rebuilt, they can be put back together. It's-- frustrating, when it happens a lot, but that's what we're here for! We're here no matter how many times it happens, for you! We'll never blame you, we don't blame you for this ... the one one blaming you is yourself, now ... when you shouldn't look down on following your heart and doing what you thought was right.