IC Cosmos Contact Box

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Sup dawg, welcome to Roxy's voicemail! I actually have a voicemail, aw yeah. Leave a message after the tone~!

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[miasmajesty]

Fuck.

[ HANGS UP. ]

[miasmajesty]

No, shit. No. Okay, Roxy? No, uh... Fuck, nevermind.

[miasmajesty]

[ This one is just a very long, very drawn out UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH before he chickens out again. ]

texting now

[miasmajesty]

Right.
I just broke up with Jake. Again.
I think.
Or I told him we broke up.
He's really fucking pissed.

[miasmajesty]

Which... Heads up. Jake is here.
I was trying to explain what was going on and he was pretty clearly not into that so I panicked and told him spoilers.
Not endgame spoilers but enough spoilers for him to be pissed.
But why is he pissed??
It was pretty clear he wasn't having any of that.

[miasmajesty]

Should I just have waited around for him to come to me?

/done

[miasmajesty]

Nevermind.
I'll sort it out. It's cool. I'm fine.

Re: /done

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

gdi jake this is why i told him to just let you hug him
saw him
kind of cried a lil
hugs help invisoness apparently
suppose that makes sense with how the void stuff works out
meh
anyway ur clearly freakin out
like big time
grab cal and some orange drink goodness and sit ur ass down
also not sure if u should have spoiled him so soon
buuuut waitin 4 him 2 long also wouldnt have worked
since he is avoidance gent
also i guess its where he is exactly in the relationship
was he being a tool and not telling u u were smothering him
or were u 2 still in the honeymoon phase?

[miasmajesty]

Oh yeah.
We were post-avoidance, but pre-clown hell.
I lost my shit a little.
The second he saw me he flagged me down for help, and I thought --
I thought something else.
Not that he wanted to get back together or anything, but that he was after it all happened.
Instead, he just...
Wanted something from me.
And I could tell he was eager to get that shit and go.
So I just...
Wanted to diffuse that tension by letting him know he didn't have to worry about it.
And instead of listening he just kind of...
Freaked out and said I was doing what I always do.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

okay
imma say this first
cuz u need 2 hear it
YOU BOTH FUCKED UP
jake shouldnt have avoided u like he did
also shouldnt have just used u 4 help
not cool
but u do have this tendency 2 get all controllin
n i think it its like
jake is smart nuff to see it
but he doesnt have it in him to see it and keep up with it w/o it getting
suffocating
probs still feels suffocated right now
u basically took control of the sitch and tried to decide all the feelings n reactions and just got a kneejerk reaction cuz hes still wantin to avoid
sounds like thats probs what happened anyway
i could bug jake bout it
gog knows i can risk him complainin to janey bout it

[miasmajesty]

That wasn't what I

[ He has a headache. Dirk pinches the bridge of his nose and lays his head against Cal, closing his eyes tightly and typing blind.

But that's pretty much just it, isn't it.

He should just...

Stay away.

From all of them. ]

I know, Roxy.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

dirk
remember on derse?
i wasn't just talking to jane yknow
i was talking to jake 2
romance didnt work
but i promise u
he still cares bout u
basically said that
after all the bullshit
n trickster shenanigans
u r still important 2 him

[miasmajesty]

Oh.
That's. good.

[ It's not really better.

They're important to each other but they can scarcely stand to be in the same room. There's just tension. And awkwardness. And a lingering guilt that's suddenly that much worse now that it's no longer just Jane. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

it is
need u 2 remember that
cuz i get it
u glitched out
n i was waiting 4 mine
and being the epitomes of clearly put together human beings with healthy emotional states that we are
id bet in six months u havent actually dealt with that properly
so u need 2 remember
despite everythin that went wrong
the ppl important to you still care bout you
if still all care
doesnt that mean we can work thru this?
this is
its a second chance right?
for us to try and be better w/o all that bullshit the game threw at us?

[miasmajesty]

Yeah.

[ But it's not good. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...
fuck it
im coming over
i can have this talk in person
i am having this talk in fuckin person

[miasmajesty]

I think I just need to be alone right now.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

would that be productive
or just make u hate urself more?

[miasmajesty]

I'm fine, Roxy.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

im coming over
please dont run from me

[miasmajesty]

[ Okay. Well fuck.

He can't turn her away after reading that. ]

Door is unlocked.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Sorry, Dirk, Roxy will be manipulative for your own good.]

[Also what is knocking, she'll just stroll in a few minutes later.]

Dirk?

[miasmajesty]

[ He's sure as fuck flopped in his previously unused bed like a miserable squid person, all tangled up in Cal's arms. Roxy gets a grunt of acknowledgement. ]

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Door closed and moving over to the bed. She sits on the edge, not saying anything at first, and have a few moments, reaches for one of his hands, taking it in her own.]

[When she talks, it's quiet.]

I don't think I ever told ya. How I wished every night I'd go sleepwalkin'. I know, it was a pain in the ass to you...but everytime I woke up, I'd feel this warmth in my hand.

[miasmajesty]

[ ... ]

I used to wish you'd wake up. Derse was a shithole but... It'd be better than being an ocean apart.