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From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

If you want me to not hurt, you'd let me GO! You'd have just let me go instead of putting these stupid fucking bindings on me!

I had her!

From:

fuhrinkaed

...I understand that you're an important part of Roxy. B-but... you're not a part that should have dominance. No part of you should really be dominant.

So I won't apologize for stopping that. Because while she needs you... she needs all of her.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

No! No, I don't! We don't need ANYTHING!

[Where IS that glass shard anyway?]

From:

fuhrinkaed

[In his hand, being pressed more or less flat against her back because he's aware of sharp objects.]

Well... we need you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

No, you don't.

If anyone needed me, I'd make a difference.

Just let me die. [Crying on you now.]

From:

fuhrinkaed

[Petting her with the free hand.]

You've made a difference, even if you don't know it.

I never knew what spades was before I met you.

That's a huge difference.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

What good does that good?!

From:

fuhrinkaed

It means I've found a whole different way to like people. A way I didn't know existed before for friendship to work.

A-anyways. The point is... I'm not going to kill you. And I'm not going to let you kill yourself.

Because we're friends, and I care about you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

And what, that's just supposed to fix everything?!

From:

fuhrinkaed

Nah. It doesn't fix anything at all.

But it does give you the strength to get through the bad times.

And that's what those bindings really are. Your strength to keep going despite the bad things that keep coming.

[He's talking like he is familiar with this thought.]

[what the fuck ed.]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

I DON'T WANT TO.

I want it to stop. I want it to stop hurting. I just want to be free of it.

I want to stop being afraid!

From:

fuhrinkaed

...You already died.

You died to get here.

Did it help?

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Didn't take. Wasn't thorough enough.

From:

fuhrinkaed

And you think you can be more thorough than a being that exists to be super ultimately thorough?

[He shakes his head.]

Roxy. I'm not going to tell you to give up on giving up. But I am going to tell you that all your friends care about you, and don't want you to die. And a lot of you doesn't want to die either.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Who says they are? Destroyers aren't exactly meticulous.

It's all pointless hoping.

From:

fuhrinkaed

...Even if it is pointless, hope's plenty.

[He puts his forehead to hers.]

So. I'm going to go on ahead. Sorry, but I can't kill you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Hope just HURTS.

Let me go.

Just....just let me go.

Let me stop.

Please.

[So much crying, looking absolutely miserable.]

From:

fuhrinkaed

...I can't do that.

I'm sorry. But I don't want to kill anyone else I like.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Then hate me. Just...hate me nuff.

From:

fuhrinkaed

[He shakes his head.]

You already know that's impossible.

I'm going to head on, now.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[Shakes her head.] No. No, no, I don't-

I don't WANT anymore!

From:

fuhrinkaed

This you doesn't. And that's fine.

But other you's do. I had the hickeys to prove how much they wanted earlier.

And it's not fair to you to override them, or is it fair for them to override you.