Heart Game (Continued)

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[There's nothing]

[Nothing]

[Nothingnothingnothingnothingnothing]

[Isn't that wonderful though?]

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Original Heart Post

ENTER | CHUMROLL CONTINUED | BEDROOM | BREATH | TIME | SPACE | LIFE 1 LIFE 2 | BLOOD 1 BLOOD 2 | MIND | DOOM 1 DOOM 2 | RAGE 1 RAGE 2 | HOPE

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Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[You also get the advantage of your BF coming with you. You...poor, poor homoelves.]

[And now you're in another thing. A probably terrifyingly familiar thing. It appears to be the husks or a burnt out village, chilly and cold.]

[And you're told you're a wolf. You see the rules and if you're not lynched the first night, you'll have to choose a team to die.]

[But you can't. You can't you can't you can't.]

[You do everything and anything you can without breaking the rules. Act off, act upset, act so not you and hope, pray, wish someone will NOTICE and vote for your team and kill you off now because you can't, you CAN'T kill someone else. You can leave people, but you can't kill another team deliberately.]

[But it doesn't work. Worse, is both teams that are up are not wolves.]

[And you're panicking, terrified, and you don't want this. You want to end this game, BREAK IT, and if you just break the rules....it'll kill you and one other team.]

[But the team you're closest too are either like minded, or likely to be chosen to be lynched this round.]

[You, Castling (and Rook too), find yourself on a stage. Everyone is looking at you.]

[Do you confess?]

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

[. . . I . . . remember this.

and I never blamed Roxy for this. but oh god these are terrible feelings]

I...

[I can't do this to Roxy. or Dio. But... /o\]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Do you confess?]

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

[what else is there to do?

I mean, yes... yes I do]

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[You could refuse and go that terrible route.]

[The vines come, they wrap around you, and the teams are still up, still going to DIE without any mercy, and it's guilt and horror, and you already hate yourself, but you could deal, you could deal, you could fool yourself into thinking you could deal-]

[Except it keeps going. Epona confesses, and it would be a lie to say part of you hadn't predicted that, that they would cave under your confession, that maybe it was a hope to end the game more quickly even if thought filled you with self loathing, but when you could have dealt before, but not now, because it doesn't end.]

[It doesn't end it doesn't end it doesn't end and you have started a chain reaction of people refusing, or breaking rules, and everyone is dying dying dying and it's EVERYONE and it's all your fault, because you see it now. You see it's in the rules now, and you should have seen BEFORE, but you DIDN'T.]

[You see everyone die, see all the people you KILLED because of your own incompetence and fear.]

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

[I hate myself a little now. and I feel bad for saying yes. but wouldn't it have been worse if I hadn't...

shakes head violently]

It is not your fault, Roxy.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Yeah, that's pretty much a thing, sadly. ):]

[And oh look, there she is, amongst dead bodies covered in vines, staring at it all blankly.]

[At least you're free now.]

It was.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

[shakes his head again]

No. None of use wanted to play by her rules. They were not fair, in any case. You wanted to stand up against her and... that is not wrong.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

It was because I couldn't just...pointlessly kill someone.

Then i pointlessly killed everyone.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

It was not pointless. Yes, people died, but... you did not know that would happen.

... I... believe that a lot of people would have done the same.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

But they didn't.

I was the one who did. Badass didn't want to go along with it, and I did it anyway.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

Because you had the courage to.

And you meant well. Sometimes... it does not pan out the way we expect it to. I... know that for myself as well.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Do you?

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

Yes. Whether it has been ... decisions here or in the world I am from...

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

I do not blame you for that decision.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

You should.

Got you guys killed.

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

That is my decision. And I do not.

It was not your intention.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Why? Why don't you? I started it, I fucked it up!

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

The echo did. Not you.

And I do not blame you because I know you would not do something like that intentionally with a mind to harm anyone else.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

...

Re: RAGE

[lucciola]

You were stuck between a rock and a hard place. I do not believe any decision anyone would have made in that game could have come out favourably.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

There might have been something.

There was defs chance for less death.

Re: RAGE

[unguilded]

[ Oh that was a thing.

A familiar thing.

Always the vine memories. ]

... There was no fair way out of that game. Playing along ... wouldn't have changed much, how the game turned out, or how you felt about what you did if you didn't confess. It would have hurt either way ... that was the point of the game. And your actions were your own, but everything that happened after that ... wasn't your fault. Nobody even blames you for what you did, because ... a lot of us would have done the same. We understand, Roxy. And we don't hate you for it. Nor do we want you do hate yourself for it.

Re: RAGE

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

[Vines are fun for the whole family.]

But I'm the one who did it. I'm the one who caved and started the whole chain. If I had just...just kept a cooler head or SOMETHING, people could have lived.