thevoidsdarkhorse | Heart Game (Continued)

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From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Well, if we did what I wanted, I wouldn't exist!

From:

fuhrinkaed

That's not true and you know it. You like existing. If you didn't you wouldn't be so mad at them for destroying what you had. People who don't want to exist would thank them for removing the attachments they had.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

I liked existing because I had attachments!

And now that they're gone...I...I don't want to! I don't want to exist anymore!

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[The scene changes.]

[Your phone pings again as you find yourself in front of a tall building.]

TG: thats the lab
TG: need to get on the roof
TG: theres a ladder down
TG: n also
TG: be a good friend

[And then it disconnected.]

[Which might be a bit vague except you can now also see a figure standing in between you and the building.]

[It’s Roxy. Standing there in a t-shirt, skirt, and leggings, her mother’s scarf wrapped around her. In her hand is a piece of glass covered in blood, her own clothes stained the same. Around her are bodies. The bodies of her friends and Rose.]

[She looks over her shoulder at you, and she’s smiling, but her eyes are empty. She turns to you, and perhaps you’ll realize the blood is HERS. She’s covered in jagged injuries, but nowhere vital. Those spots are covered in bands of tiamt-with-black, blue-with-orange, a vibrant red, three different blues, and green. She holds out the shard of glass.]

Kill me.

From:

fuhrinkaed

...Why?

[Be a good friend. Well. Friends don't usually let friends commit suicide but.]

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Because I want to die.

But I can't get through the bindings anymore.

From:

fuhrinkaed

[...okay lets access the mindypowers and figure out what the fuck I can from this place.]

[i mean clearly things are inbalanced but.]

You don't want to die, Roxy. You're upset and you feel lonely, but you don't want to die.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[So much imbalance. Those bindings are acting as a counterweight though. And look, the purple with black one is connected right to you.]

[But there is a balancing act here. The void is a double edge sword, after all, being both the beginning and end. There's been plenty of beginning in the rest of the heart, but there's a lot of the end in Rage. In her in particular. There's loss, too much loss and hurt, and she wants it to end, so why not go to the one thing she wants that can't be taken? Not many could take away nothingness like she does.]

I do want to die.

[And at least for this part, it's not a lie.]

From:

fuhrinkaed

I see.

[He walks forward, takes the glass, and looks at it.]

Well... I can't kill you. Because even if you're a part of Roxy, and the part of her that does want to die, the rest of you is held back by the want not to die.

[So he. Hugs her.]

It's pretty spadesy of me, I know. But I won't kill you. Sorry.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

[You're gonna be covered in more blood, sorry.]

[She tries to jerk back, trying to get out of his arms.]

Don't-!

From:

fuhrinkaed

[because i totally give a crap, A FRIEND NEEDS ME.]

You're my friend, and kind of my rival. And I like having you around.

Even if you don't like it.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

Stop it, don't touch me! [Trying to pull away from him, struggling more, but it seems like she might not have super strength here.] You've made it hard enough!

From:

fuhrinkaed

[...woah I have lucked out. JUST GONNA KEEP RIGHT ON HUGGING HER.]

That's what friends do, though. They make it hard to hurt yourself, even if you want to, because they care about you.

And you'd do it for me, if it came to it. I'm sure of that much.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

If you want me to not hurt, you'd let me GO! You'd have just let me go instead of putting these stupid fucking bindings on me!

I had her!

From:

fuhrinkaed

...I understand that you're an important part of Roxy. B-but... you're not a part that should have dominance. No part of you should really be dominant.

So I won't apologize for stopping that. Because while she needs you... she needs all of her.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

No! No, I don't! We don't need ANYTHING!

[Where IS that glass shard anyway?]

From:

fuhrinkaed

[In his hand, being pressed more or less flat against her back because he's aware of sharp objects.]

Well... we need you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

No, you don't.

If anyone needed me, I'd make a difference.

Just let me die. [Crying on you now.]

From:

fuhrinkaed

[Petting her with the free hand.]

You've made a difference, even if you don't know it.

I never knew what spades was before I met you.

That's a huge difference.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

What good does that good?!

From:

fuhrinkaed

It means I've found a whole different way to like people. A way I didn't know existed before for friendship to work.

A-anyways. The point is... I'm not going to kill you. And I'm not going to let you kill yourself.

Because we're friends, and I care about you.

From:

thevoidsdarkhorse

And what, that's just supposed to fix everything?!

From:

fuhrinkaed

Nah. It doesn't fix anything at all.

But it does give you the strength to get through the bad times.

And that's what those bindings really are. Your strength to keep going despite the bad things that keep coming.

[He's talking like he is familiar with this thought.]

[what the fuck ed.]